What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Teasel . I hope it improves at the refuge.

Yes well my heart's been sliced and diced, actually tossed around the thought this morning of self-harm being my next best, least harmful coping strategy, after hearing the suggestion. Surely there must be another way however. I really feel like giving up, tbh.

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm sorry I missed the edit time, was just going to say I know they say to not let other's words or opinions matter that much, but I think it's more difficult to do when that is the remaining people/ family, all that is there or left. I guess my personality or nature also.

 

[Teasel]

I'm really sorry for your pain @Rosebud

It is easier said than done not to let others hurt us. And I agree, when you've very little if any social support, what hurtful words and actions takes from us isn't affordable.

The past quite a few years have been hell. Abuse and isolation both. And I think the isolation was harder than the abuse.

For years I've been holding on to what dregs of relationships I've had. I can't quite put it into words but I know there was some kind of decision that somehow I would make these relationships work like they didn't growing up. There was me trying to make my past better or someth8ng.

So anyway I hung on to the last few relationships I had for dear life. Course all it got me was years more abuse.

I've the feeling leaving could be really good for me. It could end up I meet new people, who aren't abusive, I could live free from abuse - ain't there yet but I'm not stopping in this refuge for good.

Something about there ain't the space for new people to come into your life if its all clogged up with abuse.

I mean what do you think?

Reckon I've a chance?

Would you consider life elsewehere?i

Hope I’ve not said anything out of turn.

 

[Sideways]

Life is chaos. That's on my mind, in my mind, and all around!

 

[ladee]

^^^^^^^ Me too.

 

[Friday]

Simple. Complicated. Simple. Complicated. Simple. Complicated.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hope I’ve not said anything out of turn.

^ Not at all @Teasel . I thank you and appreciate the candor. I agree very much.

Would you consider life elsewehere?i

In a heartbeat, were it not for commitments. Have even considered homelessness instead. Were it not for commitments.

Reckon I've a chance?

^ Yes despite the great difficulty of these steps I think you will have a wonderful new life @Teasel . I know you can do it- you are doing it already.

 

[Tinyflame]

Waiting for my Boss to call.

ETA, called, useless help. Need to talk again to her shortly. Can't stand this place, and body killing me. Enough of it too, of all of it and people.

 

[Survivor3]

My care coordinator and support worker haven't called. It's been two weeks. Just infuriated. It's just really shit.

 

[Mee]

Why did we get guinea fowl? ? They are quite a nuisance! I’m in the bath listening to one yell right now.

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm sorry @Survivor3 . Feels to me like most people just break your heart, mind, body or will. The worst is needing anything.

Hope there is a reasonable explanation and they get back to you.

 

[Dynamic]

I'm glad I joined this site.