What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

Do snakes have feelings? I think so. Supposedly the lizard part of the brain is the emotional part. My snek was at the door again, which is weird because she's a subterranean species. When I opened the door she crawled out into my hand and I put her in my shirt pocket and layed down. She is just laying there with her head poking out. I think she likes it when I scratch her head because she starts licking alot.
 
I've seen something and now I really really really want some of it. Fiddle pattern silverware. 🙄 bloomin expensive it is. I don't think I even slightly care if it's actually silver. It's just the shape of it that stopped my heart 😆🥰😍 a single place setting would be more than enough. And plate would be fine if I can't find it in steel or whatever. I think I am beginning to own the fact I like the nice things. Have always felt ashamed of it for some reason. Youth or something daft. I get such a lot of pleasure from a nice bit of dinnerware. It's not like I'm into serial murder or owt 🤪
 
If I could I'd buy it for you @Teasel ! I think that sounds lovely. And if you love it you love it, guilt free! 😊🫂

Got through the impossible monday, Idk how. Except I asked for help but did most without it. And reported a safety concern. More assertive for Sure. I did however do the equivalent of forgetting to pick my kid up at school, worse yet forgetting I 'had' a kid (metaphorically speaking). Pulled the iron out of the fire best I could though. Was also a good reminder how bad stress gets, I have often wondered how I haven't physically exploded.

Made me angry also at those who cause stress for others, and bullies.

Similarly, a likely not entirely honest - working here is like avoiding a ponzi scheme- coworker complained of office theft. Not new.. I said that's another reason why I wonder why you talk of everyone is great friends and family here... (I normally wouldn't be that assertive).

Also am struggling with someone who wants MAID, but was assertive in the way their 1st comment was ~see how the help is and if isn't good enough will choose it. To my self only I thought, that is not right to put on me. i always give 100+%, or try to, and there is family, and personal choice. I also am worried about other people. I think I learned it's ok to have my loyalties, as far as perspective goes. I don't judge it, but it's not my circle and I can only offer so much. They said what can I do if not walk? I thought love and be loved?, but kept it to myself.
 
What happened?
I had to go to the doctor today to get some not very good news (possibly cancer related) and she basically kicked me out (fired me in essence) because I was getting overloaded with too much information (major sensory overload). She would not slow down or answer my questions. She got mad (in my eyes) and told me to be quiet so she could say what she needed because she would forget if I interrupted her. I was already really stressed going in. It was very traumatizing for me. And I still have no idea if I have cancer or not. I really want to scream profanities right now. Lots of them. Whew. I was not able to verbalize that until just now.
 
I had to go to the doctor today to get some not very good news (possibly cancer related) and she basically kicked me out (fired me in essence) because I was getting overloaded with too much information (major sensory overload). She would not slow down or answer my questions. She got mad (in my eyes) and told me to be quiet so she could say what she needed because she would forget if I interrupted her. I was already really stressed going in. It was very traumatizing for me. And I still have no idea if I have cancer or not. I really want to scream profanities right now. Lots of them. Whew. I was not able to verbalize that until just now.
A doctor that cant keep her train of thought long enough to answer a question? Sounds fun and somehow par for the course. Its really hard not to hate people when they make it so easy. I am sorry that happened to you.
 
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