What Makes You Angry Today?

[combatgoldfish]

I notice I hold people to a higher standard after my military service and with age I've noticed I pick up more on people inabilities to do their jobs. Or hell, even for people to do the right f*cking thing.

My boss pretty much side steps everything in conversation. It's like talking with a candidate running for political office.

Tells me in front of his boss we'll have a meeting at 12pm on Tuesday. He confirms the time with me this morning. It's 210pm... Guess what... No meeting. He sits literally inches away from me. No heads up he couldn't make it. Nor do I see its my job to remind him. He's a grown ass man. And suppose to be a manager and can't even manage his time and workload properly. I can wait to get out of this job. I look daily. I even increase my medication in fear that I could lash out. Ok, done ranting now

 

[Sarg]

It's like talking with a candidate running for political office.

Naw, no one could be that bad!

Sarg

 

[Chin Strapped]

Wasn't really sure where to ask this and didnt want to start a thread; this is somewhat annoying.

Been a good few months now since I'm drug free and about a month since I had a huge turning Point with my ptsd. What will not f*cking ease, is my poor sleep pattern. What is continually happening is that I seem to wake up the most out of the entire day, when it's 'bed time'.

I can be shattered during the day, depending on what I've been doing, come down time, I wake up. I know sleep is an issue for most, if not all, at least at some stage; but anyone else like me? not as if I've not tried a few different chillout techniques!

I'm baffled

 

[Sarg]

Dan we'll #Jar (I think that's the right symbol) and get him in on this convo. He just did a big sleep deal and said it really helped. I'll do a @Jar too to see if that works. Suffer from cyberduffusism. Oh! Look, a new word.

Sarg

 

[Spock]

I notice I hold people to a higher standard after my military service and with age I've noticed I pick up more on people inabilities to do their jobs. Or hell, even for people to do the right f*cking thing. My boss pretty much side steps everything in conversation. It's like talking with a candidate running for political office. Tells me in front of his boss we'll have a meeting at 12pm on Tuesday. He confirms the time with me this morning. It's 210pm... Guess what... No meeting. He sits literally inches away from me. No heads up he couldn't make it. Nor do I see its my job to remind him. He's a grown ass man. And suppose to be a manager and can't even manage his time and workload properly. I can wait to get out of this job. I look daily. I even increase my medication in fear that I could lash out. Ok, done ranting now

You just described my final years at the Pentagon & Gov't agencies full of incompetent senior civilians (milking DoD $$$ basically using Military employees as servants) -- doesn't suit a mission-oriented serviceman well. I'll never expose myself to that insanity again...everyday was one trigger after another in hell. Bless you & all our battle buddies that have to endure this. I'm working hard on a vehicle that provides folks like us with better, more flexible employment options when we can't do the 9-5 or just need a break.

 

[JarHed]

I did do CBT for insomnia and it's made a world of difference in my life. I have a thread around here somewhere. I'll look or you can just ask if you have a question.

I'll say this, that after probably close to 40+ years of insomnia, nightmares and the rest in a few months my sleep improved 100%. Worth looking into.

Jar

 

[Chin Strapped]

I'll look for the thread later mate, then ask questions. Sleep is on my things to do next list.

Very glad to hear it has improved for you mate.

 

[JarHed]

Hey Dan

Ok, here's the link to the thread here on CBT-I therapy: Link Removed

As well as this link: Link Removed

Which is a good explanation of what is done and how it affects people. Let me know if you have any questions.

Jar

 

[Chin Strapped]

I am f*cked, I should be out visiting clients (adult social work tyep shit), but I've found a quiet road and I'm sat here angry with myself.

Thought I hit a real turning point. Feel like shit. No meds is great until today. Feel like my psych wants me gone too. What is going on.

 

[Sarg]

Dan, we all take steps back. Sometimes big ones. And some us us take it hard because we fought so hard to get where we were. Take a holiday of some sort, doing something that brings you comfort. It doesn't have to be an all day affair, sometimes just an hour puts us back on the right side. Then it's back to the baby steps.

Sometimes, when I'm feeling really crappy, I drive out to where my wife and I lived in a tiny little house where we were happy and secure, and just sit and remember. It helps clear out the crud and puts us back onto the goal...carving out what little happiness we can.

Since we have all our appendages, no horrible scars from belly to neck, WE don't SEE our own PTSD and feel like so many do, that's there nothing wrong with us. But we're wounded. Just because it invisible doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

Hang tough, Dan, we've got your six until you're right again.

Sarg

 

[reddevil1111]

Dan, Your not sitting in a jail asking yourself what is going on.... I would say your going to be ok mate. you just are facing to much stress and are not getting rid of enough. I know you can find a way back.

 

[Chin Strapped]

I just can't get my head around it. I can't talk about anything to do with combat, without losing it and going white these days. My sleep is f*cked again and that messes me up. Oh and the recent depression.

I don't want medication and feel my shrink is not really interested in continuing therapy, even though it helps me. This came from looking at a claim form for ptsd.

I am being a soft c*nt, but who else do Say this to? I'm about ready to chin someone