Whatcha doooooooin'?

[Lionheart]

I am charging my heart monitor❤, checking my blood pressure, drinking some decaf coffee, and preparing for the day. Thinking that I need to do a load or two of laundry, ...if I am able to move without much pain and motivate myself to do it. :)

Fibro seems to be flaring up this morning. I am stiff and sore as if I am bruised all over my body so I don't know how productive I will be today. I am wishing that someone would "throw Shaggy the baggy so he can roll Scooby a doobie" for a little wake and bake (to ease the pain and stiffness and help me get into a positive mindset for the day). :D

 

[Ellabella44]

Hope you get the relief you need @Lionheart777.

I have therapy today. Last week I actually made her say holy sh*t. I'd glossed over my symptoms related to my recent mess and the fact that I had both of these things riding me as well as an addiction and nearly lost last time , but did it all sober and problem solved the h*'ll out of it this time and won.

When I came back to my senses and started therapy years ago ( husbands idea) I felt some of this was way too embarrassing to go into. Then it never came back completely like this till a month ago. So I still didn't talk about it. Under the influence of the manic side of this absolutely no embarrassment about anything at all.

 

[Ellabella44]

Therapy today as well. Felt I needed extra support for damage control. I'm trying to see what lifestyle changes ill have to go through to help control this and keep things like weight gain down. Goodbye to hazelnut coffee and sugary stuff. Anything that could be a stimulant is out. Making up my to do list. Hoping it all works out and I don't end up impacting my physical health more.

 

[MrMoonlight]

just finished my self-respect tasks/exercise and am thinking about what game I'm going to watch. Been thinking about SI and how it's a symptom of my depression. When I feel overwhelm my brain goes there, my neck thinned and lengthened by a rope with blood dripping from my nose. It's dark, ugly and is scarry.

My brain is thinking I can't wait for meds to work and I have to do things I know will help even if I don't want to do it. My therapist said yesterday to just "push through"....right now I feel like I'm "pushing against"...

 

[Deanna]

My brain is thinking I can't wait for meds to work and I have to do things I know will help even if I don't want to do it. My therapist said yesterday to just "push through"....right now I feel like I'm "pushing against"...

I'm so sorry, M.M. I feel kinda weird myself. It's the beginning of the holidays. ?! I'm always a Scrooge around the beginning, and warm up the week before Christmas. I've been waiting for my meds to kick on all day! That, or they've lost their strength.

Feel Better!

 

[MrMoonlight]

Thanks @Deanna my psyc doc increased my Cymbalta from 90 to 120 mg per day and it will be another month before it starts really helping. Glad you warm up a little but I know the start of this season is really tough for a lot of us. I hope you feel better too D.

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eta: I'm just got back from a freddy's hamburger and about to watch some football w/ a cup of coffee. Kinda nice with all the cloud cover and cool temps, widow open fresh air...

 

[Lionheart]

I'm recording my vital signs for my doctor/nurses to help give them more information on my health. I am counting my blessings and remembering thanksgivings past with my family when all were still alive and well. I am drinking a cup of coffee and wondering why my blood pressure that has been high is suddenly at a good level. I am not complaining just curious as to why it is almost textbook perfect when it has been high for the last month. Go figure. Perhaps it is the time of day, I haven't been awake long.

 

[Ellabella44]

Day 1 of my bipolar med. Its made me sleepy. Just got up from nap. Hope ill be awake for thanksgiving. It won't start helping with my symptoms till 4 weeks. Hoping I don't do anything weird today.

 

[bellbird]

It's a beautiful late-spring evening.
I'm sitting at the outdoor table on the decking. Tweeter's cage is sitting on the table just next to me.

The golden light from the low sun is dancing off the leaves as they sway in the slight breeze. I can hear a grey warbler just off to my right.

I'm eating dinner: chicken, roast kumara capsicum and aubergine, some salad with cabbage, baby spinach, carrot and avocado. Olive oil and lemon juice. And a glass of water.

Celebrating having completed year one of my Masters degree today. And allowing myself to fully take in this moment. Feeling very at peace.

Here's my sky:


Sweet dreams everyone.

 

[Ellabella44]

@bellbird sounds wonderful. Enjoy the day.

Its 4:30 am here. I've been up since 3 ish. Wrote some of my fears into that beautiful diary I bought for my mental slime. I probably just ranted the whole thing but hey its a space to do that. Hello Darkness my old friend, I'm up again at 3 am.

 

[bellbird]

Cooking lunch and watching a blackbird teach his three (quite large) chicks how to search for food out the kitchen window.

The chicks are impeccably camouflaged with their mottled dark brown plumage. Dad is flying over periodically to supervise from a tree above. His feathers are a striking black and his bill bright orange, making him more noticeable among the leaf litter, but he has experience on his side.

 

[Ellabella44]

Grumbling because it snowed yesterday. I have a bad knee and asthma so possibly slipping and having to breathe outside on a winter day are not my favorite things.