Cinnamon4z
Bronze Member
For now, you can call me cinnamon- the name of my cuddly bear.
Life can be very scary ride filled with so many unforseeable events.
What my brain logically knows, my heart and body feels differently.
At the moment it is very difficult for me to talk about my car accident
trauma from last year. In short, I was rear ended on my way to the bus stop
on 5.30.2014. It was drizzly Friday- right after a nice bright and sunny
Memorial Day Weekend. ouch. getting a bit anxious now...ill stop
I have had a ton of back pain, neck pain, wide variety of urinary & pelvic floor issues
and anxiety, panic attacks, and ptsd from the car accident. I am a male and just turned 25
last summer. The car accident has turned my life upside down and inside out.
Have had many sleepless & restless nights where i was unable to walk, sit, stand or even lie
down without a lot of pain. Also have had many tremors, shaking, twitching, and funny feelings
in hands & feet, etc. I also had many tense & super nervous & anxious nights and moments
which I realize now were likely panic attacks.
Ended up seeing ton of doctors with little answer. Things did improve generally
as by late July I was able to walk about a mile. But then things quickly went down hill
and i had to take an extended leave from my job. But by late December, soon after returning
to work, my panic attacks really became much more frequent and severe - as was my depression
with some thoughts of suicide.
And the PTSD really began to rear its ugly head.
I used to enjoy a lot of action flicks (The Transporter was one of my faves) and games - and i especially love the mental challenge of racing games. But watching those high action films and especially scenes involving car accidents and collisions or high speed pursuits (ie. fast & furious), really trigger a panic attack & flash back.
My body seems to tense, back, neck, shoulder & pelvis brace & feel the impact of being rear-ended. And then i remember the feeling of being spun around. Other times, the symptoms are bit more opaque - like tremoring or shaking, tightness in chest, pins & needle feeling, or otherwise flaring up of urinary incontinence or diarrhea... It is a whole mess.
I also face a lot of issues driving near the accident scene. And i get quite paranoid sometimes about cars in my rear view mirror or on my sides - fearing that i may get rear ended, hit or thrown into another accident and have to re-experience all my pain & suffering again or worse.
Currently I am seeking treatment from a psychologist who is doing 'integrative' therapy using combination of CBT & mindfulness techniques. It is very very slow though. I am probably going to start some EMDR treatment.
I hope that we as a community may be able to better support one another through our troubles.
Life can be very scary ride filled with so many unforseeable events.
What my brain logically knows, my heart and body feels differently.
At the moment it is very difficult for me to talk about my car accident
trauma from last year. In short, I was rear ended on my way to the bus stop
on 5.30.2014. It was drizzly Friday- right after a nice bright and sunny
Memorial Day Weekend. ouch. getting a bit anxious now...ill stop
I have had a ton of back pain, neck pain, wide variety of urinary & pelvic floor issues
and anxiety, panic attacks, and ptsd from the car accident. I am a male and just turned 25
last summer. The car accident has turned my life upside down and inside out.
Have had many sleepless & restless nights where i was unable to walk, sit, stand or even lie
down without a lot of pain. Also have had many tremors, shaking, twitching, and funny feelings
in hands & feet, etc. I also had many tense & super nervous & anxious nights and moments
which I realize now were likely panic attacks.
Ended up seeing ton of doctors with little answer. Things did improve generally
as by late July I was able to walk about a mile. But then things quickly went down hill
and i had to take an extended leave from my job. But by late December, soon after returning
to work, my panic attacks really became much more frequent and severe - as was my depression
with some thoughts of suicide.
And the PTSD really began to rear its ugly head.
I used to enjoy a lot of action flicks (The Transporter was one of my faves) and games - and i especially love the mental challenge of racing games. But watching those high action films and especially scenes involving car accidents and collisions or high speed pursuits (ie. fast & furious), really trigger a panic attack & flash back.
My body seems to tense, back, neck, shoulder & pelvis brace & feel the impact of being rear-ended. And then i remember the feeling of being spun around. Other times, the symptoms are bit more opaque - like tremoring or shaking, tightness in chest, pins & needle feeling, or otherwise flaring up of urinary incontinence or diarrhea... It is a whole mess.
I also face a lot of issues driving near the accident scene. And i get quite paranoid sometimes about cars in my rear view mirror or on my sides - fearing that i may get rear ended, hit or thrown into another accident and have to re-experience all my pain & suffering again or worse.
Currently I am seeking treatment from a psychologist who is doing 'integrative' therapy using combination of CBT & mindfulness techniques. It is very very slow though. I am probably going to start some EMDR treatment.
I hope that we as a community may be able to better support one another through our troubles.
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