THIS DOES NOT MATTER- I am using "will power" to not say more.Is that your own perception and assumption?
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THIS DOES NOT MATTER- I am using "will power" to not say more.Is that your own perception and assumption?
I think I’m really starting to see what you guys are saying. I have assigned an innocent word concept to describe my abuse. I was not given a harmless spanking. I was humiliated. I was not spanked by the babysitter, I was beaten and used for sexual gratification.
If someone puts you over the knee and holds you against their penis, getting hard and groaning and thrusting against you as they hit you, and continue hitting you and hitting you and hitting you, until they come... is there any way that’s NOT sexual?I don't understand how it's not possible he just got mad and spanked you.
Agreed. Babysitters shouldn't be spanking kids, spanking despite being told not to is weird at best, no matter how it played out. And the OP doesn't have to explain *why* it felt sexual to us. Worth exploring with a therapist and getting an appropriate diagnosis.THIS DOES NOT MATTER-
You really described that better than I could have. I was not able to come up with the right syntax for it.Yep. Exactly.
If someone puts you over the knee and holds you against their penis, getting hard and groaning and thrusting against you as they hit you, and continue hitting you and hitting you and hitting you, until they come... is there any way that’s NOT sexual?
That’s just one example of... oh, maybe 15 or 20 different examples I can think of offhand.
Some may be purely sexual, some may be a combination of assault and sexual assault, some purely about power and pain... IE some all about body placement / rubbing up against them (and could substitute spanking for cooking or sleeping or reading or watching tv or listening to music or whatever the pedo chooses as the “reason” to be rubbing up on the child); others purely about getting off on their struggles and pain if it wasn’t spanking it could be jerking off whilst hitting them with a riding crop as they’re tied to a bed, or raping them as they cut them to lube them up; others a combination... essentially talking about they’re a power domination rapist with sadistic tendencies so they have to be in complete control of their victim, and be causing them pain, and it’s that combination that turns them on and let’s them come.
Any which way you slice it? It’s a pedophile sexually assaulting a child in those 15 or 20 different examples of hitting a child for their own sexual gratification.
Not a caregiver disciplining a child. Not even in the same universe as disciplining a child.
The same way that locking a kid in a basement or closet for 3 days without food, water, toilet... isn’t timeout.
Any normal way of disciplining a child? Can be perverted into abuse. That doesn’t make the normal thing abusive. Because it’s not the normal thing. It’s the wrong word being used to describe abuse.
What does OP stand for?Context matters. I second what @Friday said. There are ways that it is inappropriate and the OP feels, as an adult, that this was the case. It would best worked out with a therapist with a true diagnosis however.
Original posterWhat does OP stand for?
You do realize there are people with a spanking fetish....right? As a matter of fact it's very common.@Friday I think you need to read through this entire thread again.The sexual abuse you described is clearly sexual abuse that you came up with on your own but not at all what the OP has described. Not at all
Thanks you guys. That felt a little like badgering to me.Agreed. Babysitters shouldn't be spanking kids, spanking despite being told not to is weird at best, no matter how it played out. And the OP doesn't have to explain *why* it felt sexual to us. Worth exploring with a therapist and getting an appropriate diagnosis.
You do realize there are people with a spanking fetish....right? As a matter of fact it's very common.
The sexual abuse you described is clearly sexual abuse that you came up with on your own but not at all what the OP has described.