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I dont really have anyone to talk to. Not only about my mental health but just in general. I don’t really have friends anymore. So yeah im coming on here to vent because I don’t have anywhere else to.
One of my closet friends, someone who I would call my twinflame ghosted me at the begining of quarantine. She wouldnt answer any of my texts or calls and when she finally did in July she said she was distancing herself because shes been going through a spiritual awakening. Im not particulary mad at her for that because I myself have begun that journey and I understand the need to self isolate. I just really need a friend right now. She was the one person out of all my friends who always understood me and really listened to me. We helped each other through so much, and often times were able to relate to each other because we both suffered terrible trauma in childhood. We also both have the same interests in spirituality so I had hoped shed wanna talk about our journey and experiences together. It hurts me so much that she was able to cast me out so easily without any explanation. It makes me think that she didn’t really care about me. ?
I chose to stop communicting with one of my other friends because how toxic she was towards me and I felt drained everytime I was around her.
I have another friend from our group and we did not “end” our friendship but we barely talk and she is moving to a diff state. When I try to talk to her about stuff like mental illness or my struggles she does not really understand and gives those answers that dont really help or sometimes make me feel worse.
I feel so lonely. I put so much effort into being their friends and helping them with their problems, I geniuely had so much love for these girls. Now I realize that it was mostly one sided and that they do not care about me nearly as much as I did for them.
Thats why my posts are so long and I have so much to say. Those were my only 3 friends so I dont have anyone else to tell this stuff to or talk with. And ive isolated myself from pratically all family memebers.
I dont have a person to send memes to anymore or text when something funny happens to me or when im excited about something.I have no one to call. Its one of the worse feelings when all you want to do is share new things and information with someone and you have no one to go to.
I feel pathetic :/
One of my closet friends, someone who I would call my twinflame ghosted me at the begining of quarantine. She wouldnt answer any of my texts or calls and when she finally did in July she said she was distancing herself because shes been going through a spiritual awakening. Im not particulary mad at her for that because I myself have begun that journey and I understand the need to self isolate. I just really need a friend right now. She was the one person out of all my friends who always understood me and really listened to me. We helped each other through so much, and often times were able to relate to each other because we both suffered terrible trauma in childhood. We also both have the same interests in spirituality so I had hoped shed wanna talk about our journey and experiences together. It hurts me so much that she was able to cast me out so easily without any explanation. It makes me think that she didn’t really care about me. ?
I chose to stop communicting with one of my other friends because how toxic she was towards me and I felt drained everytime I was around her.
I have another friend from our group and we did not “end” our friendship but we barely talk and she is moving to a diff state. When I try to talk to her about stuff like mental illness or my struggles she does not really understand and gives those answers that dont really help or sometimes make me feel worse.
I feel so lonely. I put so much effort into being their friends and helping them with their problems, I geniuely had so much love for these girls. Now I realize that it was mostly one sided and that they do not care about me nearly as much as I did for them.
Thats why my posts are so long and I have so much to say. Those were my only 3 friends so I dont have anyone else to tell this stuff to or talk with. And ive isolated myself from pratically all family memebers.
I dont have a person to send memes to anymore or text when something funny happens to me or when im excited about something.I have no one to call. Its one of the worse feelings when all you want to do is share new things and information with someone and you have no one to go to.
I feel pathetic :/