What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Survivor3]

I'm just wishing I had something nice to do right now.

Me too!

 

[RVA21]

I really hope that something good comes up for you @Survivor3

 

[Survivor3]

I really hope that something good comes up for you @Survivor3

Thanks @Lumos, so sick of feeling like poo, just want to start enjoying life.

 

[RVA21]

Thanks @Lumos, so sick of feeling like poo, just want to start enjoying life.

Me too

 

[Survivor3]

Me too

You always brighten my day though, even when we both feel sad! Like when we play the association game thread.

 

[RVA21]

You always brighten my day though, even when we both feel sad! Like when we play the association game thread.

Cool thanks! I always like to play that and am glad you do too!

 

[Tinyflame]

I was thinking about this, that if things stay the same after effort, it's better just to accept it and (for me) to live differently. Like, if you don't have dignity, well, who cares? My problem has been (trying) to live like that when it's not meant to be, maybe that's how it is for some people? So just accept it. Like there's a pervy person at work, they never addressed or fixed anything, so I go through it every day. It stopped being 'a thing' to me when I just accepted it will happen every day. Not to say it isn't easier if there is a day I don't have to, like atm, but, well, I tried, it didn't help. Time to live the way I am stuck with and not expect anything else. Yes. 'Not' live like the other-half lives. Then nothing is expected, nothing is disappointed, nothing is hoped for or expected to be different. If I'm a freak, I might as well make the most of it!

 

[Lionheart]

I'm thinking about how much I miss my family n how much I wish my sister was still alive. Living on one's own is a bit lonely and it is gonna take me a while to get used to living alone, and I was thinking it would be so much easier if my sister were still here.

 

[8888]

That I should read but just can’t seem to focus on it today

 

[Tinyflame]

A self portrait: lol

Was going to write a self-pitying rant, but have neither the energy or desire. Suffice it to say my life has been all of what I didn't want and none of what I did, or what I'd live for. Due to choosing badly, or choosing the 'right' thing. And all that is around me is death, and dead people, and reminders of it and trauma. Now what? Little late to salvage anything, what a joke as someone said.

 

[Tinyflame]

Eiy, I need a break. Trying to choose vacation days for April onward (bizarre set up for choosing), deadline tomorrow. And just started to finalize choices and realized I'm looking at the wrong year. Then I realized I've lived much of my life iin the wrong year. Heck, the wrong decade.

 

[Freddyt]

Memories of and old nightmare. Haven't had it since my teens. I have vivid memories of fighting it, it was my monster chasing nightmare. I ended it somehow in my teens - probably not long before it would have ended me.

Now that I think about it, it may be a missing piece in my medical anxiety.