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Self love is hard for me.

Dear diary, saying I'm ok when I'm not is easier than explaining all the reasons I'm not ok. I cant explain the reasons why I'm not ok to myself , let alone my 2 friends.
 
Dear diary, saying I'm ok when I'm not is easier than explaining all the reasons I'm not ok. I cant explain the reasons why I'm not ok to myself , let alone my 2 friends.
Sometimes it's difficult to say why we're not ok. It's good to try and be positive, it can help improve our mood. But it's okay "not to be ok"...
 
try not to worry about this please. the Mods take good care of keeping the site clean. I've messed up a few things.

are there other reasons why you don't feel smart or clever enough?
Yeah, I mean I see all these eloquent everywhere, an even at 38 I have to google the words to see what it means. I don't know how the forum works properly and I post such long posts without double spacing. I don't know how to reply properly on here with the reply or the quote button. See look at this post, I've gone on and on.

I've no idea where to post if I've certain questions.
 
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Dear diary, please don't laugh at me for what I'm about to say, I don't understand it myself. But when I watch a romance film or tv show, I always crave for a happily ever after ending. Now I know it's fake but when there's no 'happy' ending I feel really upset and sometimes I can even cry. Think I've always wished for a happily ever after even as a child, so now I crave it for tv shows/films.
 
Dear diary, please don't laugh at me for what I'm about to say, I don't understand it myself. But when I watch a romance film or tv show, I always crave for a happily ever after ending. Now I know it's fake but when there's no 'happy' ending I feel really upset and sometimes I can even cry. Think I've always wished for a happily ever after even as a child, so now I crave it for tv shows/films.
I hope it's okay I'm commenting...I cry watching all those movies.

Wanting beautiful love is nothing to feel stupid about. But remembering that the movies are made to illicit such emotion or be a perfect story, left me with realizing the need for romantic connection. Then I could take steps forward in that direction. I don't know if that's right for you. Just want you to know you're not an idiot or alone.
 
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