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Hi
Going to keep this somewhat to the point as I'm incredibly overwhelmed at the moment.
I got incredibly drunk and at some point ended up sexually hurting myself. I was biting my hand and saying no. I didn't want it to happen. It wasn't like I was doing it? I woke up with bruises and pain I'm female. I had scratches on my chest and the but wound on my hand.
The next night I freaked out and wanted to rip my skin off? I was shaking and my heart rate was up.
Since I've been dissociated mostly.
It isn't only this I have "symptoms" and such and I'm genuinely asking myself was I sexually abused as a child?
I know no one can tell me and I don't remember anything but this thing I did to myself isn't normal. It can't be ... I self harm to release pain (mostly controlled and by choice) this was awful and caused a lot of pain??
Any advice? Thoughts?
Thanks
Going to keep this somewhat to the point as I'm incredibly overwhelmed at the moment.
I got incredibly drunk and at some point ended up sexually hurting myself. I was biting my hand and saying no. I didn't want it to happen. It wasn't like I was doing it? I woke up with bruises and pain I'm female. I had scratches on my chest and the but wound on my hand.
The next night I freaked out and wanted to rip my skin off? I was shaking and my heart rate was up.
Since I've been dissociated mostly.
It isn't only this I have "symptoms" and such and I'm genuinely asking myself was I sexually abused as a child?
I know no one can tell me and I don't remember anything but this thing I did to myself isn't normal. It can't be ... I self harm to release pain (mostly controlled and by choice) this was awful and caused a lot of pain??
Any advice? Thoughts?
Thanks