Emotions - I guess an emotional rollercoaster is part of the healing process, right?

[Tinyflame]

Here are more then @the10thleper319 .

 

[the10thleper319]

I woke up sad this morning, sad about my health over the past four years. I've been feeling bad about feeling sad. I don't like feeling sad. That's why I am always in bed, my safe zone and refuge for years when I was sad or anxious. Just a little ago I came to the realization that the sadness is an emotional reaction to all the medical trauma I've endured--and seen. It's ok to feel sad. It's a natural reaction. At the risk of sounding self-righteous, I am justified in feeling sad. I HAVE gone through a lot! It's been one sickness after another including coronary artery disease and cervical spinal stenosis! But I am determined to heal--physically, emotionally, and mentally--as much as possible and enjoy my life!

 

[the10thleper319]

Here are more then @the10thleper319 .

Thank you. I just noticed your message now. Sorry for appreciating so late.

 

[Tinyflame]

That's so sweet @the10thleper319 ! No thanks necessary. Here's some more.

 

[the10thleper319]

That's so sweet @the10thleper319 ! No thanks necessary. Here's some more.

Thank you for the additional hugs, even though you said thanks wasn't necessary. It's very kind of you. Your timing is perfect as I am now facing a new medical challenge: severe nausea , feeling like I am going to vomit and actually throwing up twice in one day early on. Prior tests have--thankfully--come back negative. Yet the source of the nausea is unknown. Thursday I go for an endoscopy.

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh no @the10thleper319 that is awful! I find to me that's the worst feeling in the world, even worse than most pain, especially the throwing up part. I hope they can figure it out soon and can help correct it. GENTLE hugs it is then! I will be thinking of you on thursday but if you can't wait that long don't be afraid to tell your doctor.

 

[the10thleper319]

Oh no @the10thleper319 that is awful! I find to me that's the worst feeling in the world, even worse than most pain, especially the throwing up part. I hope they can figure it out soon and can help correct it. GENTLE hugs it is then! I will be thinking of you on thursday but if you can't wait that long don't be afraid to tell your doctor.

Thank you so much. I appreciate the gentle hugs and concern.

 

[the10thleper319]

Thank you so much. I appreciate the gentle hugs and concern.

I had the endoscopy done this morning and it's negative! No ulcer or cancer! They don't know the cause of the nausea. Prior tests showed it isn't H. pylori or gallstones. I am to stay on the anti-nausea medicine and will be seeing my primary doctor on Tuesday to further investigate. Now that diseases/illnesses are off the table, I believe the nausea is from the trauma. The majority of times I felt nauseous was when I was discussing the trauma. I don't want this to hinder my healing or my therapy sessions. I am pretty sure nausea and vomiting can be symptoms of trauma; I accept this. Thanks again for the hugs and concern.

 

[Tinyflame]

So glad to hear that much good news so far @the10thleper319 . I hope it gets resolved soon. Hugs to you.

 

[the10thleper319]

So glad to hear that much good news so far @the10thleper319 . I hope it gets resolved soon. Hugs to you.

Thank you.

 

[the10thleper319]

Thank you.

Thank YOU!

 

[the10thleper319]

I returned a little while ago from my primary doctor’s appointment to go over the tests and further discuss the nausea and stomach discomfort. I have a small hiatal hernia and my sodium is a bit low. I have reflux since 2006. I discussed with her that the majority of times I get nauseous is when discussing the trauma and in trauma therapy. I don't have an ulcer but the trauma and psychosomatic conditions can bring on ulcer-like symptoms, she said. She gave me instructions on how to take the medicine since calcium reduction is a side effect. She also suggested electrolyte waters. I WON'T LET THESE PHYSICAL CONDITIONS STOP ME FROM HEALING!