I'm Feeling A Great Deal of Hope! Why?

[goingonhope]

This is really, really hard work coming to terms with our trauma(s) and staying willing to confront it all, dig into it and around it, re-process it and all through new lens's and all while being responsible and accountable to our present day attitude and way of thinking.

And, though it's really hard. I'm continuing forward and through.

Hope

 

[goingonhope]

It is possible that for right now and on any given day, I might be ill. I might be even worn-out, exhausted, be and feel physc. wrecked and think intensely negative and all while I excavate, re-examine and clear away my experiences of trauma. So what?

This all passes. The good, the bad and the indifferent, it all passes and is replaced with the good, the bad and/or the indifferent. And, so life is ever changing. Good!

I've also found that on any given day, I think clearly, and do respond intelligently. I come further out of my shell and share and associate with others. I have chooses, can use wise discernment and overall accomplish a great deal of good and feel real damn good.

I'll take this flexibility any day over any of my previous rigidity where nothing ever, ever, ...and, I mean ever changed or passed.

This has me very, very pleased tonight, the simple reality that yes, life can change and does, feelings can pass and do, thinking styles can increasingly become more productive and will, life-syles can and do change, and more great surprises and pain are ahead. Hey, not too, too shabby, at all.

Got to say, it beats the crap out of both my complacency and aggression. Whether my aggression is directed toward myself or perhaps outward toward others, it simply has always turned up unproductive. My complacency never did any better of a job.

So this is it, decision, life, time and no rock left unturned.

Now there hasn't been much go easy for me today, but my life is not dependent upon easy. When I chose and/or went the easy route, my life was un'freakin'believably miserable, and far more miserable and seemingly permanent than anything I've yet to experience these days.

Hope

 

[vst]

Your Eloquent Words

Thank you Hope for your posts. It is a blessing to know others are having the same experiences and feelings I do. You are way ahead of me in your healing, but you have helped me keep my hope alive. For the past few weeks I have had nightmares, negative emotions and low self esteem. Your posts reminded me that the negativity will pass and I will feel the hope again. This is my cycle of life and I can deal with it.

Cheers,

vst

 

[goingonhope]

the negativity will pass and I will feel the hope again. This is my cycle of life and I can deal with it.

vst, yes we can deal with it!

It is going to be easier, gentler and comforting sometimes and likely damn' bleak at other times, however provided we keep facing, walking through and moving beyond whatever pers. respons.'s is before us, and with a willingness to discover and grab hold of the many positives in our life, I know for me, it has and is again all making my life worth living in the Present.

I don't have to wait to live, to hope to heal completely, and beyond what is expected and normal for me anyhow, and considering my trauma.

I get to accept it all and live now, and to the best of my daily abilities, while always remaining willing to learn and take the best pers. responsibility for myself that I can.

vst, as you've said, our negativity does and will pass, all in time and with only our continuing efforts and willingness to ask for help when we need it.

IMHO, those fruitful, promising, sometimes confusing and painful efforts, whether or not felt sometimes, or at other times, more often than not, are all part of of this business of good living.

Hang in vst, and so will I. As for your nightmares, it's very likely they will significantly diminish and even come to an end, as you progressively heal. Try not to avoid the nightmares, if it means avoiding your continued healing.

Let's take care.

Hope

 

[goingonhope]

I've been daily doing my best to balance my life with managing my PTSD and along with it's triggers and though nothing is perfect and there is some struggle, pain and confusion, there is also many joys and an increasingly hopeful and good life.

I wanna say that this progressive, pers. initiative, trauma exposure, and honest self-examin. process, I now believe can and does work miracles.

Hope

 

[vst]

Hi Hope,

You are awesome!!

My breakthrough came last Saturday night when I realized what had triggered this recent episode. Once I understand I can take action.

As I wrote in a earlier post, I want to trust, I want to love and and I want to live life to the fullest and without fear. It is going to happen!!

:occasion:

vst

 

[juls]

Thanks for sharing and inspiring me...

 

[resurrection]

Hope is what it is all about I find, picturing yourself in the future with some confidence and belief in yourself, is what keeps me going on a dailly basis. Finding this site and realising Im not the only 1 in the whole world going through this is also really helpful. THANKS. "GOINGONHOPE" you are a really inspiring , courageous person and I wish you all the very BEST.

 

[goingonhope]

It's really nice to read your posts. Thank you all for the very nice things you've said.

I've been facing much lately and working hard juggling a lot and I haven't felt able to post here in addition to other things, but what I know tonight is that life is hard and yet life is still darn good. I am so glad to be alive. OMG, I never thought I'd live to see 18, nevermind 40. And, I never, ever, ever dreamed I'd have a family, a home that's safe and a reason to live.

Wishing us all Well !

Thank you too,
Hope

 

[EmoxxKid]

Your amazing!...and You bring hope to all of us...

Keep it up!

 

[goingonhope]

Geneva,

Very kind of you to say, and thank you.

IMHO though, truly all of us who regain life, and/or choose the direction and path of life again after our trauma, and in spite of all that's now working overtime and against us...our PTSD, In fact, I think we are All truly, some really amazing people.

Again thank you,
Hope

 

[rt1967]

I hope to be able to make some kind of contribution to this group,your message has given me hope tonight thankyou