Re-claiming Your Body

[Upside Down Eagle]

the triggers are like all over the place, images, music, feelings, people... Even the symbolic ones (like in movies, paintings, landscape, so-hated political party

I agree with BrokenGlass on this point, though :) I also have lots of symbolic triggers... on some days, anything can set me off, things that don't make sense at all to "normal" people. Also I think the suggestion of facing them is a very good one. I think I'll have to calculate for myself the days that I feel strong enough to do so.

What has also helped is advice from a yogi/pranic healer/aryuvedic medicine specialist.

Thanks so much! That was very specific and step by step, I'll buy the "ingredients" needed and give it a try, I think this might also help me connect more to reality. I must admit it sounds scary but also sounds like a very good way to ground my hovering self... ;)

@Barconian thanks! I'm mostly scared of my body because I feel it has been claimed by somebody else (my father), which I keep seeing in my mind all the time and sometimes have very realistic hallucinations, as if he were physically there trying to assault me... this is one big reason that I want to try and claim my "domain" back.

 

[Hope4Now]

I must admit it sounds scary but also sounds like a very good way to ground my hovering self... ;)

Just do it a little at a time. I don't know about others, but I seem to be good at triggering myself with my thinking. We talk a lot about how others can trigger us, but sometimes we are our own worst enemies. If it gets too scary (e.g., you feel nauseous or get pain or shaky, that's a sign you are moving too fast. Try then to just pay gentle attention to your breaths...say "in" and "out" or count them. Keep your eyes open and your feet on the floor until you settle again. Don't beat yourself up for not being able to do it "well enough" or "fast enough."

The person who does cranialsacral tx with me also suggested looking at myself eye-to-eye in the mirror and talking to myself until I believe myself. "Fake it 'til you make it," was her suggestion. I try to do this one: "I am here now. I am safe now even though it doesn't feel that way. I am good enough for the moment. I will take care of myself because I am worth it."

 

[Nonexistent]

Relax Broken :)

I was giving examples to Radise.

The advice of touching the body, saying hello to parts of body - agree, also a good one, especially if you're hesitating to do it. Basically, it's all about breaking out of your comfort zone when you feel strong enough, step by step. Because our defense mechanism of dissociation made us go into the comfort zone of safety... but the price is too high... depression, psychosomatic symptoms, etc. So we have to return Home.

Or, another analogy, is pulling emotional splinters out. Feels unpleasant but necessary for healing that part. :)

(forgive me if I talk too much, a habit of theorizing... :p).

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

forgive me if I talk too much, a habit of theorizing...

Not at all! I'm thankful for any advice you guys have to give me. Especially those of you who have gone through this stage where I am at now!

I made a very small step towards inhabiting my body today, I went walking through the city and tried to face the feelings rather than fight them. It was awful, all these feelings that I normally run away from. Being vulnerable is not my strong side, when I came home I was feeling so threathened that I threw another "Hulk" fit. Sigh... :yuck: :yuck:. I bought the stuff mentioned by Hope4Now, so I'm prepared to go for it...

Or, another analogy, is pulling emotional splinters out. Feels unpleasant but necessary for healing that part.

I once stepped into a tack with my bare feet, and it was lodged in there quite nicely. I had to pull it out by hand -an activity that made me feel sick... well, facing PTSD is like pulling barbed wire out of my ass... sorry for the graphic example... :roflmao:

 

[Barconian]

well, facing PTSD is like pulling barbed wire out of my ass..

Something like that lol