Mortifying Tuesday Night...

[Mammo]

I have to write something about this, as I'm just so freaked out.

My ex-partner found a note that I had written in a sketch book months ago, which was when I was in a spectacularly low period. Understandably he freaked out - but, he called the f*cking cops!!!

I wake up to about 10 policeman literally trying to break down my front door with a battering-ram.

They made me go to hospital. Which for me - from my previous experience is literally the most terrifying thing that can happen. Not kidding, would rather be dead than back in hospital. So I just had to spend 3 hours in ER, trying to convince these people to let me out. But now, that the cops took me to the hospital, under the mental health act...all this stuff will now be plastered all over my medical records. Am so exhausted from the energy spent trying to stay calm; to not show how frightened I am. The intense anger that these complete strangers get to do these things to me, and there is nothing I can do about it.

 

[Intrepid]

I try to keep the worst stuff out of my journals out of fear of just that happening. I also have terrible handwriting, which is another layer of protection.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Do you date things, when you write them down? I always date everything. Did your ex-partner try talking to you first? Calling the police without trying to check in on you first seems a bit extreme? So sorry you had to go through all that.

 

[Mammo]

Hi guys @Intrepid - yeah, that sounds like a good idea...unfortunately I find writing quite cathartic...that'll certainly teach me.

@JEKBreatheandBelieve honestly, I doubt I'll be organised enough to date things...plus that could be a double-edged sword.

I had one missed call and one text (text didn't say anything alarming) my phone had been on low volume so I hadn't heard it. So yeah was a bit of a leap to go to calling the police. even the doctors at the hospital thought it was odd, to the point of asking if he may be trying to get back at me, or if we're in a custody dispute ?!

 

[shimmerz]

I would be really interested as to why 10 policemen were dispatched. Did the note suggest that you were going to harm others?

 

[Mammo]

I would be really interested as to why 10 policemen were dispatched. Did the note suggest that you wer...

hi @shimmerz - nope nothing like that at all...I don't know if its standard procedure or whether two cars got there by "luck" - mercifully at least I didn't argue back too much

 

[shimmerz]

I find it absolutely fascinating how the police prioritize 'emergencies'. Incredible how domestic violence cases can be left for hours on end because police were 'too busy' handling 'more important issues'.

 

[Mammo]

I find it absolutely fascinating how the police prioritize 'emergencies'. Incredible how domestic viol...

couldn't agree more! unbelievable.

I'm still amazed I didn't completely lose it whilst being patronised and ordered around in my own house.

 

[Mammo]

Questions for any Aussies around...

@Lizio (no idea if you can shed any light on this?)

So, when the hospital people discharged me last night, they said I will be getting a call from the community mental health team to check up that I go back to seeing my T regularly (which is extremely difficult for cost reasons)...

Questions:
1. Do I have to speak to these people?
2. What happens if I don't?

I am incensed at the idea of some bureaucrat stranger sticking their nose into my life - it's none of their business. I hate the coercive nature of this profession, and find it extremely toxic. if the answers to 1 and 2 above are likely "big trouble" (e.g. get hauled back to hospital or given a community treatment order) then I'll do my best to suck it up and play along.

What do you guys think?

 

[Queen Boudica]

Suck it up and play along. Definitely. Just play the game. If they section you they can force anything on you. Smile nicely, agree with everything, until they lose interest.

 

[Queen Boudica]

The intense anger that these complete strangers get to do these things to me, and there is nothing I can do about it

Yes it is beyond belief, we have no rights. Who is going to be able to dispute this in court? And did you know insurance companies are able to refuse travel insurance or any other insurance, because you have been mentally ill. The reason, because 50% of the population will become mentally ill at some point in their life so the insurance companies cannot afford to take that risk. So how does that work? Complete abuse of human rights.

 

[Mammo]

Suck it up and play along. Definitely. Just play the game. If they section you they can force anything on y...

Hey Lizio, thanks for replying. I'll certainly be polite, and try to appear cooperative...but the fact that a door has now been opened which allows people to dictate my life...makes me so painfully aware of my "second class citizen" status. I will try to be nice, and hope they just back off...I'm crossing my fingers for apathy.

I hate the fact that I've spent the day on edge, waiting to the phone to ring from one of these people. I hate the fact that I have to live like this - when no other group of people in society (with the exception of indigenous community) has to.