When folk talk about conceptions like hope, purpose, meaning I’m usually not able to access those dimensions. Do admire that in someways.. for me it’s more that what needs to be dealt with today, it’s harder for me to take in beliefs like hope or meaning, they come off too idealized or romanticized because it’s also like you are projecting something into the future, it feels like an illusion. Too much of reductionism here maybe! And who knows, tomorrow things will look different because someone said everything is in flux.