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[ms spock]

Thank you @ms spock :-)

:)

 

[ms spock]

I've been feeling a bit under the weather yesterday and today.

I hope that you feel better soon.

I am doing well. I am reading and doing the exercises from David Burns' new book: "Feeling Good". Things are clicking.

 

[RussellSue]

@RussellSue thanks, I smiled while reading these words. Supermarkets can be places for power fights. I need Lavendel oil and mint when I go to the markets. Do you go shopping alone? :-)

Well, recently I have been doing curbside pick up of my grocery orders at the suggestion of multiple forum members but there have been a few instances in the last few weeks where I had to go into a store for a few things that didn't make it into the order. The last time I went alone, I got mildly mouthy with a customer who was, for unknown reasons, cursing at me while I was checking out. I realized immediately after getting snotty with him that if he was wacky enough to be randomly cursing at me, then he might just be wacky enough to follow me out of the store and I got triggered. He did not follow me, thankfully.

One of my last therapist's biggest concerns for me is that I tend not to allow myself to take up any space in the real world. I get the hell out of the way in grocery stores and since most people do not, I spend a lot of time getting out of the way. After 30 minutes or so, it starts to tick me off and I resent the rest of the shoppers during my trip. It is, more often than not, my problem far more than it is them being total pricks though, it doesn't always feel that way. It really is a power fight, though. It is best that I stay out of those places until I learn to hold my ground without snarling. It has been much worse since covid-19 started, too, since people are actually ordered to be considerate but still will not.

I have some essential oil nasal inhalers in my purse, as I do not breathe through my nose and have to make a real effort to sniff things. But, when the heat is on, I forget to use them, often. My best (non-pill) defense remains my 1980s style stereo headphones. I figure people think if I am out of it enough to wear them, I might just be a total pain in the ass to tangle with because I get a lot more space with them on. They work in that regard every bit as much as the music helps.

Tis the season.

Glad it sounds like you made it out of the supermarket stress without any permanent damage.

 

[Friday]

Aaargh. The only possible way to make shopping worse? (I hate shopping.) Spending someone else’s money to do so.

 

[Friday]

LMAO... Didnt realize we were still on the shopping topic / just read back.

 

[Friday]

I seriously deeeeespise spending other people’s money, though. I’ve had boyfriends look at me like I’m this mad alien creature, when they grin and try to hand me a card and I react like they’re waving a rattlesnake at me. To be fair? They were TRYING to be nice. Most of the women in their acquaintance a) love shopping b) love it even more when it’s free. Nope. Huh-uh. Pass. The only time I feel justified in using someone else’s card is buying them 3 possible funeral suits (2 to be returned) just to save them the hassle. No worries, man. I’ll get you kitted out, & get a tailor to stop by after. You do you, I’d deal with the people-ing. That’s it. I HATE spending other people’s money in every other situation, but that one.

 

[ms spock]

***puts out some fruit platters for everyone on the forum***

 

[Rani G2]

realized immediately after getting snotty with him that if he was wacky enough to be randomly cursing at me, then he might just be wacky enough to follow me out of the store and I got triggered. He did not follow me, thankfully.

Sucks! Know these kind of fears RusselSue.. feeling this kind of threat is nervewracking and exhausting. These kind of encounters means one needs 2-3 Days off to come back to normal.

My best (non-pill) defense remains my 1980s style stereo headphones.

Had to google these, can’t remember how they look like. Glad they work for you.

is best that I stay out of those places until I learn to hold my ground without snarling

True! Sometimes writing something on the palm and whenever a prick comes at me, depending on the prick attitude I check my palm, or hand with some quotes written.. one of my favs >>>>>> pick your battle wisely>>> (Yeah corny as f*** heard it multiple times) Not arguing is not weakness blah blah!!! Or using humor.. wish this talent was on my radar when the trigger fog wraps the . I leave places like a dumbass..

Yes it’s getting worse now due to covid restrictions. Watched two fights in the train during the last 5 days.. I’m done I want to hide in a luxury cave with no spiders.

 

[Rani G2]

I’m in a blah mode

Depressed as f***. Decided to read .. can’t.. why? Because brain is degenerated. I want to drink coffee, eat sweets, lay on the couch and watch movies. I must go out, do some sport, but I can’t, if I don’t I feel like sh***. I ate some cereals and went to the park with low energy and somehow was able to do some excercise for 30 mins. Feeling better.. have to finish the book and cook...

 

[Changing4Best]

Three folks brought me Thanksgiving plates yesterday. All basically the same. That sure is something to be grateful for.

 

[Survivor3]

Having some flashbacks today. It's just about tolerable, I just keep trying to distract myself.

 

[RussellSue]

Having some flashbacks today. It's just about tolerable, I just keep trying to distract myself.

Got you got anything unrelated to read? I don't know if it is this way for you, but I have found that being in support forums while trying to distract myself actually makes it worse because I am constantly reminded of my problems.

I hope you feel better very soon.