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Destruction & Achievement...

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futurefocussed

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A lot of people ask me why I don't make jewellery or draw as much as I used to, why some of the things that I create have a dark tinge, because my passion for them was destroyed through manipulation and exploitation at Teen Challenge.

I used to love creating jewellery, but I was forced to teach others and eventually to donate all of my resources to them and it destroyed me. They would manipulate me into fixing various pieces of jewellery and creating custom jewellery pieces for various occasions, it reminds me of them now.

I used to draw beautiful pictures using soft pastels and was very talented.
They forced me to pull down and burn all my artwork because they thought it was demon possessed. I hadn't picked up a pastel since then until yesterday.

Then there was my poetry… how gifted I am in poetry, but that I have picked up again… it didn't die for more than 6 months…

That they destroyed some of my greatest joys…
 
Can you reclaim it?

I used to darned love a lot of things with numbers, coding and encryption. About went to shit in a few events I ended called an algebraic function and similar. Dissassociating severe body harm from some activities has been darned hard since then.

It's totally possible to take small bits and rebuild from the scraps. 'Destroyed' is one thing, 'forever' another.
 
It happened to me to. For fully different reasons, but I used to draw and make jewelry and paint and so on, and had to give it up to survive.
But it comes back. I know it's a bad consolation, but it does come back. I had given up jewelry making completely for 2 years, didn't even think of it, almost gave away my supplies...but then one day I felt the desire to make stuff again.
 
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