@Ninja sorry to hear that you are struggling as well.
I am still struggling with my eating again. I am hoping today is better. I binged last night, so I did not feel like eating this morning so I had two cups of peppermint tea. I have not been going well with my eating this week. I haven't put on a lot of weight though, which is good. I am still tracking my food in my Weight Watcher's app so I am keeping a track honestly of what I am eating. So I can see why I used to be obese because all the food that I used to eat. It was a friend's funeral this week, she committed suicide, and I am angry about this. I picked that was what she was going to do some months out from the suicide. I was angry when she said she was going into "retreat" I knew that was bullshit. I said to my partner that the next time that we would all be together would be at her funeral from suicide, that prediction came true this week. I am having trouble accepting her decision, and the whole situation, and I have to accept that the people didn't have capacity to manage the situation, and that she did not choose to pursue a path of wellness or life. There are so many people who work so hard here, and have very few resources, she had many resources but she still chose not to work on the issues in her life.
I wanted to binge eat at lunch because I felt overwhelmed by a man I was talking to, but I made a decision not to.
My sister's appalling behaviour after my wedding ceremony, and lunch is the end of all that. We will see each other for our birthdays, Xmas and one of my brother's birthdays, and if she won't behave around that, then we won't see each other again. Because f*ck it, life is too short.
