Hmm, I found out yesterday that apparently I am a faker. I did the "do you have PTSD" quiz on this site and my result was that I don't have PTSD, but ASD. Acute for the last 10 years, lol.
I know I got the result I got, because I denied having problems coping with my job and family. The thing is, my family lives on a different continent, so yeah, I have no problem coping with them. I have no boyfriend, so no problem there either. And as far as my job goes, well, work is my coping mechanism. Thats how and where I numb myself now, thats how I numbed myself as a kid. Sometimes I lose it at work, but then I hide in the bathroom - so far still coping. Plus, I have a very hard time asking for any help or break, its part of my problem, something I am trying to unlearn.
The point is, diagnosing a psychiatric illness is not as simple as asking 20 questions. People are complex and they give the answers they give for their own reasons. Plus, it must be hard for the patient talking to a person who is not someone they trust, especially with PTSD. I couldn't imagine opening up to a psychiatrist who is not invested in treating me, but instead is just evaluating me.
I don't really know where I am going with this. I am just so tired. I guess just saying that its easy to say someone is faking, without knowing the person. It sucks when fakers take away from the benefits that are meant for the people who are suffering, but I don't know if they should be so much of a focus. We live in a society that is based on trust. If someone wants to leach off of the system, they will find a way. But I think the majority of people are honest. Maybe I am in denial, but I really think that.