Sufferer Ello My Name Is Chibi... Thats All Their Is It Seems.

[chibmonster]

Chibi...ya that's what they call me. ive been in a relationship for 10 years and i love cats and i can draw and dance. i have a lot of medical problems like epilepsy since i was 12, had cancer at lest it was able to be cut out, endemitriosiss, gallbladder is now gone, going to physical therapy for my back and hip and heel and who knows what else im just a bag full of fun stuff.
I was diagnosed with PTSD when i went to a Therapist after i was raped a year ago, found out it was actually happening for 2 years by the same asshole so yay, at least i wasn't cheating like he was telling me. Sadly that's not where it started, it started with a drunk dad who abused my mom for years then went after me, and no therapy. Then was raped the first time when i was 18 on 2 different occasions. But since i was taught to grin and bare it i buried it so i forgot and went on with everything till it all got pulled out.
Now i don't feel anymore im afraid of getting close to people cuz they might hurt me, cant sleep, have flashbacks, things i forgot pop-up, i have one person who is their for me and that is my partner and i cant get close to him, so im on this site glad to know their are others, and needing to get stuff out cuz since i moved i haven't gotten a new therapist, but i will soon.
So ya that's me in a nut shell.The person that doesn't work physically or mentally.-chibi

 

[Fadeaway]

Welcome and make yourself at home. This is a great place for help.

I hear you on finding a new therapist after a move. it isn't that easy to just start seeing someone new.

 

[Maxi]

Welcome :) You'll find plenty of support here and individuals who have had similar experiences (and so plenty of empathy). (((Hugs)))

Maxi

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I hear your sad story, and I'm sending you more hugs if you accept. None of this was your fault, and it's awful it happened to you.

There are many here with real advice, so all I can do is share hugs, care and support. But know someone read this and cares :hug:

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Hi Chibi,

You come across as very honest, straight to the point and courageous, despite all the problems.
Welcome to the forum and hope you get a lot out of the info here! :)

 

[wyrd_dragon]

Hi Chibi - I have a lot of empathy for your experiences, and how hard it can be to feel like you can't 'feel' closeness to your partner. I
m glad you're here too and I hope that you find friends and support here <3

 

[nic1633]

Welcome and so glad you're here! The important thing is to find somewhere (anywhere, even online) that you can share your experiences. As you do, the memories will have less power over you. You have already shown great courage by posting here. There is hope and you are worth it!

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the forum!