Fed Up With The Rollercoaster Of Emotion

[deer_in_headlights]

(((((((((((Kath)))))))))))

Absolutely, Hon: honesty with your T is crucial.
Your therapy session doesn't even have to be about your trauma. You experienced times when you've just worked together with your T on coping and safety issues.

Since my falls, fractured wrist, and all the fainting, one of my trauma Ts has refused to do anything triggering; instead just focusing on healing and recovery strategies. I was straining at the bit, yesterday, to do some digging into trauma, and he wisely wouldn't let me.

Your therapy is next week. No need to get anxious about it now... that's a lot of spinning wheels and exhaustion.

Are you able to email your T? Mine allow me to do that anytime I need to, and it's wonderful. I know they're reading them when it works for them, so I worry less about being a burden.

(Dental... starting to pass out again, so I won't go there; except the healing focus of getting present; instead of worrying about the future.)
Linking arms!
Love!!!!
Deer

 

[Marie E.]

KP . . be sure to be kind to yourself and not to rush things or push yourself too hard! I know it hurts and we all want to just get things over with, but overwhelming yourself might not help. Remember to pamper yourself. Maybe even call a hotline to talk. We are all here for you my lovely dear friend!! (((Big Hugs)))

 

[spursfan80]

WOW! What fantastic women you all are!!! I'm really impressed with how much progress can be made in such a short space of time. I can't wait for those good times to find me.

I'd really like to link arms with you all, to join the circle of support and friendship.

 

[KP the nut]

you don't want to do more damage and it sounds like you might be getting to that place. I could be totally wrong, though, just my thoughts.

Thank you, I feel I could be pushing too hard and doing a bit of damage.

(((hugs)))

 

[KP the nut]

I'd really like to link arms with you all, to join the circle of support and friendship.

Count yourself in

Arms linked and sending love
KP

 

[KP the nut]

I know it hurts and we all want to just get things over with, but overwhelming yourself might not help. Remember to pamper yourself.

(((Marie)))

One of the fantastic things about this site, is being with friends who understand. I now realise I pushed too hard. I will do the next session but will not allow it to become so intense.

I've pampered myself with too much chocolate tonight

, but feel relaxed.

(((HUGS)))
KP

 

[Reclusive]

Yay for chocolate!!! :D Just remember that you have limits and that's okay.

 

[KP the nut]

Absolutely, Hon: honesty with your T is crucial.
Your therapy session doesn't even have to be about your trauma.
T has refused to do anything triggering; instead just focusing on healing and recovery strategies. I was straining at the bit, yesterday, to do some digging into trauma, and he wisely wouldn't let me.

Your therapy is next week. No need to get anxious about it now... that's a lot of spinning wheels and exhaustion.

Are you able to email your T? Mine allow me to do that anytime I need to, and it's wonderful. I know they're reading them when it works for them, so I worry less about being a burden.

(((Darling Deer)))

My T also refuses to do a session if other factors are affecting me, it is one of the reasons I trust him. I plan to chill and relax over the weekend.

I can and do email my T, I find it easier to put my thoughts into written rather than spoken word.

I know I will recover from this, it was such a powerful memory which I had hidden deep. It still knocks me sideways. I think the setbacks are fewer, maybe it is three steps forward and only one or two back. Which still means progress.

I'm having a lovely glass of homemade wine (cherry and apple), not too much but I feel relaxed enough to sleep.

Good night my friend

Linking arms and sending love
Kath

 

[KP the nut]

Gosh, the home made wine worked a treat

. I missed Saturday morning but the afternoon has improved.

I lay in bed thinking of my session last Wed. and had the most awful physical reactions, I had to use all coping skills and remind myself it was a memory and that I was safe wrapped in the duvet.

H and I did the usual Sat stuff, shopping locally, the shopkeepers here are so nice and friendly.

I have just done a community car drive, feel v good that I did it. It not only helps someone but it is part of my therapy, T wants me to do at least 3 drives each week.

It seems such an effort to do anything - Yuk

 

[Heather]

Hang in there Kath. You're doig great!

Hugs and lots of love and support. Heather

 

[Reclusive]

You really ARE doing great (agree with Heather). You should be proud of yourself -- in fact, I say you should give yourself a special treat. You're SO strong and doing so good.

 

[KP the nut]

(((Heather))) (((Reclusive)))

Thank you. I am holding on, just.

My H and I have a lovely meal planned for tonight, we try to do something nice on Saturdays. Tonight is venison sausages braised in red wine and H is doing his apple, raison and suet pastry pudding. Possibly a nice bath whilst it is cooking with lit candles. I can feel the tension easing as I think of the warm water.

Linking arms
Love
Kath