Finding My Way Back

[Brad1980]

I am back on the site because it helped me before. I lost my way for a while and was listening to the things in my head and believing them. I have been in trauma therapy for a couple of years. The therapy and situations that were going on in my life started things spinning in my head. The more I pressed the worse things got. Until I finally gave in and went back to drugs to stop the madness in my head. It stopped the madness but then I was back using drugs. I had lost all hope of ever getting better and it was more than I could take.
I quit using and have headed back to therapy. I was able to connect with people on these forum because they understood PTSD I had an ugly childhood and early adult life. It caused me to process information differently than other people. People at my 12 step groups try to understand but they don't get what I deal with on a daily basis and some of them judge me pretty hard.
Being here among fellow sufferers brings me some peace. I am hoping I will be able to share with people who understand the hyper vigilance, the not feeling safe, and the other things that come along with being a survivor. Thanks for listening.
Brad

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I remember you!

Welcome back!

 

[shimmerz]

It caused me to process information differently than other people.

and some of them judge me pretty hard.

I can relate very much to this. Welcome back Brad.

 

[Bloomy]

Hey Brad, its a year since you wrote this post and Im wondering how you are doing today? Im also lost my way for a while there, but now Im trying to dind it again. Its true that people here are so helpful since they have ptsd themselves and can relate and understand in a way rarely found otherplaces. Ptds is a experience of its own. Inspiring to read your post and hope your not lost anymore.