(forgive Me For Using A Cliche Term But) New Year, New Me!

[Matilda]

January should typically be a triggering month for me considering it's when the abuse began, but so far this has been one of the best months I've had in a year. I've made such simple and small changes, but they all just feel so great! I chopped off most of my hair to a shoulder length bob and it looks really cute, I opened up my tight wallet (I'm really cheap) and bought myself some new (not thrift) sweaters, I bought some new makeup and actually shaped my eyebrows (excuse me for being such a girly girl haha). and best of all....I'm starting college again! It's just community college, but I decided to take some art courses there. Only a few because I decided it would be best to continue working full time, but it still feels great especially since I am paying for all of it. No loans, no help from others, and all cash. Just really great ways to start the new year. Of course it hasn't been perfect. I've actually had a few panic episodes and a few paralyzing nightmares. MY trigger was the news about the dad throwing his young daughter off of a bridge, the little girl who trusted him and loved him. It just broke my heart and brought too many memories. I don't necessarily know where the nightmares came from, but they're always about me losing control. I've been wanting to go back to therapy to talk about it, but since I'm going through a schedule change thanks to college I haven't been able to see her. Hopefully Ill go back again soon. Thank you everyone for your support and I hope you're having a good new year :)

 

[Deleted member 1860]

So awesome! I'm glad there are many positive changes in your life. It feels great, doesn't it?

 

[Matilda]

It really does! I don't think I've cared so much for myself (appearance, health...) since last february. It just feels great!

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I think that self care is an important part of healing. I really do believe that if we look better we feel better, so taking an extra few minutes to pick out something we really like to wear that looks good on us, doing hair, makeup, etc can really make a difference.

 

[Seagreen]

Im happy for you Matlida :-)