How Did You Sleep Last Night?

[Philippa]

I wonder if I will sleep tonight. My housemates just bought a 57 inch plasma television...and it's friday night (say no more):rolleyes:

I start a new job tomorrow...need sleep.

 

[Nighthawk]

I had about 1.5 hours worth of sleep last nigh. I hope tonight is better.

 

[Sheer Force of Will]

I slept for two hours. I just lay on the floor for the rest of the night feeling numb. I have never felt so numb before. It feels like everything inside of me has turned to ash. Yesterday my aunt told me that I am a bad person for holding the abuse against my parents. I am not sure I even want to sleep.

 

[KP the nut]

I slept a bit better. I was relaxed going to bed and woke late this morning.

 

[rowean]

My meds knock me out but because of the whacko side effects I am on 1/2 dosage so I am now waking up at 3am like clock work, completly unrested, tense, and feeling like my whole body is on fire. Love it. Not.

This morning the dream started out ok, went to see the new T, the receptionist was nice, but the PA started bullying me as we were walking down the hallway to fill out the information sheets, literally pushing me around physically and then mocking me. Ended up unable to speak so they threatened to lock me up then I lost control and attacked him and they had to pound me down. WTF!

 

[KP the nut]

I slept with the dogs, I was upset before bed and needed them to give me comfort.

 

[rowean]

I slept with the dogs, I was upset before bed and needed them to give me comfort.

my dogs are a great option if you need serious cuddling, as in being squished - the rotti thinks she is a lap dog and therefore must sleep on you and the mutt has seperation anxiety if he is not in contact with the rotti - but sometimes, getting smothered is the best way to sleep, til they fart! :eek::laugh:

 

[AngelaMarie]

I slept okay. The nightmares weren't until I woke up.

 

[Meadowsweet]

I had the worst night in a while last night, woke up to some nastynightmares.

But for over a week I've been having a glass or three of wine to help me sleep. But then I'm foggy in the day, so have stopped drinking, and hence the bad nights.

 

[KP the nut]

I slept better last night, still in a bit of pain but it is easier.

 

[shell]

I slept like crap, I've been getting body memories again for the last 2 nights. Just when I thought I had got my sleeping back to acceptable levels, the memories and nightmares start again.

What did I do to deserve this, at times it feels like I must have been really bad to deserve this? If only I could remember, but then that's the whole problem.

 

[Sheer Force of Will]

I had my worst night in a while too. During the day, when the memories hit, I get this feeling of my insides turning to ash. I feel like everything inside of me just crumbles and is dark, dirty ashes. Its the words think i have ever felt, but it usually only happens when something triggers me or I have a flashback. Last night is the first time I have felt that while trying to sleep. I drifted in and out of this nightmare state, feeling like ash all night. My nightmares were all about my foster mother. One of her sons decided that he didn't want me around anymore, so I had to leave them and I didn't talk to or hear from any of them for a year. I wrote her a letter last week saying how much I missed her and how much I want to see her again and she did not reply. Since then I have been having nightmares about seeing her and her turning away from me. She was the only mother I ever felt safe with. I miss her so much. I havn't slept in days. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this.