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How Did You Sleep Last Night?

I was up and down the whole night, got up to eat twice (not supposed to do that, I'm a bit overweight as it is)! I had some nightmares at least twice about losing my purse or my wallet or something. I know in my waking life, I am very concerned about having enough money in the future, especially with the way our government is turning. I collect various kinds of benefits from it, and the future of those is shaky at best. I am trying to get a job, but running into difficulties concerning said benefits. My prospective employer says they cannot take them away from me, because I would be making far less than minimum wage, and also the laws covering the type of work I would be doing clearly state that what I am paid cannot be counted as income and cannot be figured in when I am applying for public assistance. None the less, there may be those in positions of power who disagree. So my financial future is kind of up in the air....
 
I hear ya' on the food related sleep complications. Been paying dearly the last two nights for overindulging over the weekend. Tummy upset, too stimulated to fall asleep, inflammation causing old pains to flare back up making it hard to stay asleep, along with a few new ones, and a few rare headaches here and there.

"Treating" myself, as many would call it, ironically enough. Just because one knows better doesn't always mean one does better, that's for sure. But the body sure provides a few lasting reminders.

Too much chocolate, too much meat and cheese substitutes, too much gluten-free bread, too much of making it all taste so damn good, and making so much of it. Even the healthier stuff isn't always healthy if not consumed mindfully.

May today's choices be less heavy on the innards and tonight's rest be much more restorative. Sleep is one the areas most improved in the last two-ish years. Self, let us not continue working at f*cking it up, please.
 
Nightmare about being in a bathroom stall, knowing bullies were waiting outside for me, ready to beat me up. Relates to people in my real life, I'm certain. Wish these horrid nightmares would stop. I rather dream nothing at all, or get no sleep than have these. Sucks.
 
Bad couple of nights. First night I had a nightmare that a man was in my apartment holding a gun on me and I awoke to see him in the shadows. Horribly upsetting, didn't sleep the rest of the night.

Last night, I had another dream about my ex who went kind of crazy when we moved into a new house, beyond the abuse. He just went kind of nuts then - stress? Anyway, in the dream he was pulling his usual crap in double-talking me, shutting me down, dismissing and demeaning me, threatening me, telling me he'd cheated on me, running around me while I was trying to walk to another room and cutting me off, and menacing me. So weird and upsetting. All of my dreams about him are now about him when he was so crazy at the end of our relationship. Both nightmares were happening in real-time in my mind, especially the second one. Just too real to let go of. It's into the evening here, and I'm still thinking about that nightmare and not wanting to go to sleep. Ugh!!!!
 
Your fainting is a scary event @Fadeaway that's for sure, and serious medical issue going on it sounds with too much prazosin! Yes, those nightmares about mother. So sorry you're having these horrific nightmares Fadeaway awful what she did to your precious body and mind. Hope that the prazosin can be tweaked and adjusted for hopefully more optimum outcome and effect. I yesterday asked and received from dr. to have a different anti-anxiety drug and have it now and hopefully this one will be more effective in dealing with EMDR and high anxiety over mother and the entire cast of pervs and the hell she and they all put me through my entire horrid life (she married child molester and expoleft me and my sister with him and more ad nauseum) that I continue to grapple and deal with and will start again next week in EMDR (hate EMDR) dealing with her sh**! that she did to me and serious sexual, etc. damage she caused to happen in my life. Geez-crap! father and mother did a f*****' number on me and I just want at least the trauma to be deadened through EMDR, which has deadened the father destruction even though memories will remain just not triggered and have not flashed back by watching movies, living life, nearly as before EMDR to father's destructive memories, now got to do mother and others. Hate it.

I hope and will pray (if okay for me to pray for you) that you don't faint again @Fadeaway. Please be careful while walking and standing while tweaking this drug for optimum medicinal results. Please be careful. JJ
 

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