This is a rhetorical question for me. I am nocturnal. I dread the late night hours because I know I do not fall asleep like a baby. It brings up feelings of deep embarrassment and shame. I feel like dying and not wanting to ever wake up again. I dont like this part of my life. In fact, I hate it. I know I can't sleep well. I know that it is hard for me to sleep since I am like a zombie and meanwhile, I am super hypervigilant because during these late night hours, fights happen between my brother and his gf.
I hate this time of the year. I don't look forward to it. I feel unrecognizable.