I Am Not Angry At Anybody But I Am Angry At Myself Tonight

[Tim &Bailey]

. I can be triggered sometimes by my own dog because I think of all the stray dogs i saw in Iraq.
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I used to feel the same until I got Bailey. Not sure where you were in the dirt but where I was- Balad and Baghdad areas the strays were always these maingie mutts - Nothing chased them away better then my buddy Theo and his K-9 Brutus (a German Shepherd) They have a distinct bark and they were always a welcome sight.Any of the K-9 handler teams were. Guess thats why the GSD is so good at helping me know I'm safe, and if I'm not no mutt or Alli-Babba Sumbitch or anything is gonna get thru my wire. - Just a suggestion I know the service Dogs aren't for everybody but Bailey really helps me a lot. When I get real angry her and I go for long walks in the woods- I got tired of hitting shit I have broken my rt wrist twice and my third and 4th knuckle are really tore up. I had cubital tunnel surgery from my injuries over there and I have little to no feeling in the lower part of my arm all the way to my lower 2 fingers. swinging on shit dont hurt anymore just does more damage to myself. Hope u find an outlet and pray your feelin better

 

[abnvet]

I believe that we all have triggers of some type. I too jump with these triggers and go into an anger mode. Its difficult to deal with and I end up feeling angry with myself more than anything.........

 

[Jimmy1]

I believe that we all have triggers of some type. I too jump with these triggers and go into an anger mode. Its difficult to deal with and I end up feeling angry with myself more than anything.........

You hit the nail on the head there Abnvet.

If we could deal with all our traumas properly, then those triggers would have no effect. Thats in a perfect world.
The problem is though, that veterans can experience multiple traumas just on a single mission let alone the whole deployment. And dealing with one particular trauma could take one, two, or maybe more therapy sessions.
Therefore, with how busy therapists are today, most veterans will never be able to deal with all their traumas.
So its a matter of removing ourselves from what triggers us. This is a challenge in itself as sometimes, everyday life has triggers. This is why a lot of veterans either hit the open road and become drifters, or isolate themselves in the boonies.

I can't wait till my children have left home and Margaret and I can lead the quiet life.

I don't want to move a million miles away, just far enough out of town and on sufficient land that if people are coming up the driveway, I can hear them well and truly before they get there. It will also be away from all the rude people who are leading there busy lives in the hustle and bustle of modern day society.

Hope I have made some sense in this waffle.

Jimmy

 

[femaleveteran]

its all good