I Realize That I

[Teasel]

Quire like myself more of the time ♡

 

[ladee]

More solid than ever, what others think of me, is none of my business.

 

[Tinyflame]

I am scared of a lot of things, but worse yet a lot of people.

Is that what we're referring to- safety- the absence of such fear?

 

[Teasel]

I don' know @Junebug relatively free from such fears rather than free from them altogether maybe.
I'm not sure it's simple.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes I suppose that's very accurate @Bearlinda . The realistic fears we should have, the irrational or over-done ones we should challenge; the places we fit, the places we are unwelcome or are ourselves a deleterious presence. I suppose that's learning.

 

[Teasel]

Like I think if I felt safe at home that would be a big improvement of my overall feeling of safety, I think also having one or two more good friends would help add to my feeling of safety too as being without that feels positively vertiginous @Junebug

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh @Bearlinda , I don't even know what 'vertiginous' means, except looking it up it describes my migraines.. :hilarious::p

I hope you can make your home joyful, safe and peaceful, and have the life you want. :hug:

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize I let a lot of others, and God, down.
I realize a lot of others have let me down.
I realize I let myself down.

 

[Teasel]

Have been conned for most of my life!

 

[Mee]

Made a good decision with authenticity to myself this morning. That makes me feel ok. If it's seen as crazy by others that's also ok. I realise my boundaries are important but I do care to lay them with kindness. If thsg means admitting my ptsd makes this ’not you but me’ and if people think worse of me, that's ok; because I realise this is honest, and that feels authentic and good to me.

 

[Mee]

Am no longer angry with someone who was inconsequential but a tangent to my situation. I would not have been angry were it not for ptsd, but rather curious, pitying and sad for his behaviour toward me. I recognise that because my ’shield was shattered’ his unpleasantness hurt in a way it would not have when I was well adjusted.

I also recognise i had something to react over; his behaviour was cruel and trouble making.

 

[8888]

I realize that I'm not hated by God.