I realize that trying to be kind to all others, or not hurt any others' feelings- which that thought or priority comes as naturally or learned or personality or ingrained as breathing to me, and isn't even a required conscious thought but I 'do'- has left all of them with hurt feelings, and that has left me feeling so hurt and anxious and horrified and ashamed that that isn't something I can live with/ bear. :( Though in truth, it wasn't even my actions that were the original cause, but someone else's that should feel shameful and likely doesn't at all. I have absorbed all their shame, or have shame as a consequence.