Rose White
MyPTSD Pro
I have SI therefore I am, at my core, untrustworthy.
No one who cares about themselves would have an intimate relationship with someone who has SI, because how could you trust someone who tells their self SI thoughts? How could you trust someone to care for you if they secretly want to leave their life sometimes?
I don’t want that from someone else. Therefore I must stop the SI thoughts in myself. Which, of course, is like stopping a river by throwing rocks at it.
Which invites a return to isolation, not of everything, but of the private parts of me, of the parts that I wouldn’t wish upon anyone.
No one who cares about themselves would have an intimate relationship with someone who has SI, because how could you trust someone who tells their self SI thoughts? How could you trust someone to care for you if they secretly want to leave their life sometimes?
I don’t want that from someone else. Therefore I must stop the SI thoughts in myself. Which, of course, is like stopping a river by throwing rocks at it.
Which invites a return to isolation, not of everything, but of the private parts of me, of the parts that I wouldn’t wish upon anyone.