Is This Me Being Triggered....

[Ronin]

Personally, I've got several severe religious triggers of a couple religions / paths, though I tend to figure it's me before thinking of it as someone else's problem. Or, that it's more a PTSD/past problem than these people trying to convert me one way or another, and that when they are up to evangelism my exaggerated reactions are still a PTSD thing, not their currect activities.

Or: leaving religion out of explanation of reactions as much as can be done, focusing on the reactions themselves, working them through as another PTSD thing, normal day thing.

And there's another way to look at this - hey, you care this deeply about an issue that to large numbers, is just hypothetical or commerce, congratulations on being a caring person about it, caring is good. Now, how do you turn that care into self care? ;)

 

[shimmerz]

@Justmehere , it may well be that the pushiness is almost more of a trigger than the religion, although I have very good reasons to be triggered over religious zealots. The woman I ran into in the store a couple of weeks ago was a zealot, the poster, imho, was not, but was pushing it. And I am working on boundaries right now. And one of my boundaries is 'don't be spewing off what others 'should' be doing'.

This woman at the store literally followed me through one store and into another going on and on about how I was going to HELL and if I would just read the bible....
f* off. And there was nothing I could do to get her to stop! All in the name of God. Puuuuhhhhhlease! God doesn't excuse one for bad behaviour imo. And I get to choose (without someone spewing at me that I will go to hell if I don't choose your path), whatever I want to believe without someone harassing me. And fear mongering is NOT something I am good at taking in.

Same with this poster, but on a lesser scale. I have worked each and every minute of each and every day, tirelessly, to figure my stuff out. But here is the answer. Believe in God.

lol. I hadn't thought of that. That would be the same god that decided I should be born to people who wanted me dead? The same god that allowed me to live through that so that I could live through this? I have no idea if the poster in that thread even HAS PTSD! And god doesn't hand you more than you can handle even though the suicide rate of PTSD is through the freaking roof!

It feels like people who tell me 'that was a looooong time ago honey..... remember where you are now!' Oh, right. Nevermind. There! See that! Just believe that it was a loooooong time ago (or if I would only honour God the way that THEY do) and my PTSD will go -- POOF! And I feel like, for whatever reason, our culture dictates that because these people are trying to 'safe us', that the most ridiculous behaviour is allowed.

So freaking annoying! Because obviously, according to this posting, it is all simple simon stuff and I missed it somehow all of this time. Grrrrrrrr!

Please don't get me wrong. I respect those who love their Gods (whoever those Gods happen to be). I do not respect people who cross the boundaries of a love based religion and using fear mongering and hateful tactics to ram those beliefs down other's throats.

Okay, yep, I got it. I am reacting to the chick in the store more than this posting..... because the posting is nothing near what I am talking about in this posting. I think it was the not being able to get away from her. She was literally stalking me ..... Yep, I got it now. I thank you all so much.

I am still annoyed with the posting I talk about here, but my reaction is over reactive based on my experience with that woman. Thank you all so much for letting me vent and work through this thing. Again, I would like to reiterate, I respect those of you who have an important God in your life. As I have my own spiritual leaning. Please do not take this posting as a disrespect for your beliefs.

This is my junk. I get it.

 

[katz]

When I first started reading this thread, I wasn't sure if I even wanted to continue. I read about all the different stories and situations that everyone has had and their views of God.
I don't mean to make anyone angry or to put down your beliefs. I believe that everyone can make their own choice on who to believe in, or not.
I really just wanted to find a place to tell....

I found a letter that was wrote to God. It was in a child's writing. The child was writing to Him for help and to "make daddy stop hurting me". The letter talks about how the child even went to the mom, but she would not believe.

I think that this letter said a lot to me about my own beliefs about the Lord. I think that He can be there for us when we believe. Over the years, I have gone back and forth in my own beliefs about God. When I don't feel like believing, I think that He finds that okay. I have always believed that He is there when we want and need him, but He can also step back when you don't want Him. I just reassure myself that He will be back when I want Him too. He will always understand, because He know what I went thru.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

As an adult I experienced Toxic Spiritual Abuse and although I call myself a believer, I am ultra sensitive to pushiness with religon and often I have a hard time hearing the spiels.

So for me it is both a trigger and a distaste for those who are in a place that they are only saying the things they were taught and I hate that.

I hesitate often in my posts to say anything about what I believe, because I am not alone, so many victims of Spiritual Abuse.

So basically it read light. I wish I could not react so but I have been burned so badly by ignorant and well intentioned people pushing the beliefs is order to get me saved.

I think it is far better to offer whatever assistance I can to the people who have been so badly burned by toxic reliigon. I know that the believers I know do not do that either.

I hate preachiness but I am open to someone who is quietly sharing for themselves in a post. When in Rome, tread a fine line.

I hope this helps you in some small way. i have a great respect for those people who were so badly burned that they do not believe in God or Highter Power or whatever.

I think it comes down to common sense respect for where a person is at in their lives. Not perfectly but the best I can do.

I believe in spiritual faith not religon. In your search for your own truth I hope that you find peace for yourself and healing from the branding experiences you have had.

Spirtuality in my opinion does not preach,nor does it push a person.

Personally I believe that God does not like salesmen for him. I think that faith is very personal and that is a very personal decision.

In a country that is so Politically Correct, I have a hard time with the zeolots no matter who they are and what they believe.

I think that a balance is possible. I am still finding my way. i hope the same for you.