Oh, thanks. :-) I do keep reminding myself that it's normal to be nervous on the first day, and I actually think I am *less* anxious about the actual job than most would be. Which is really interesting to me. My anxiety seems to be coming from somewhere else.Congratulations:) Wish it were a more relaxing process, but every now and then it's kinda nice to have the types of issues that ordinary people have, like a bit of anxiety before the first day on a new job. That's high five for Normality!!
I'm really aware of self-talk, and there isn't any that is negative around the job specifically. It's mostly "I don't want to go!" I'm trying to understand the source, because I don't think it's the normal "first day jitters."Does checking your self talk/internal dialogue help at all? Like reminding yourself that you aren't expected to be perfect on Day 1?
Thanks for this! It's funny; when I think "relaxing," all I can think of is what I normally do - hang out with the cats. I think that will be enough. I was thinking I was going to have to do some school work, but now I think I'll do some of that tonight (unfortunately, the actually lessons aren't unlocked until Sunday night, but I do have the reading assignments) so I don't have to do any tomorrow night. That way, I won't have to worry about getting something for class done the first day of work.Being a somewhat unavoidable stressor, would it help to organise yourself a relaxing but rewarding evening to look forward to
When "chillin with my doggo" is my decompression plan after a specific stressful event? I'll often buy a new toy for the occasion (or plan somewhere to take him, which doesn't apply so easily with cats) ahead of time. That seems to helpful fortify it in my mind as something I'm looking forward to, because he always loves a new toy:)hang out with the cats. I think that will be enough.
Oh, that's definitely part of it. More complicated than just not wanting to go to work, though. Tied in with having to be away from my home (my safe place), leaving my cats, not being able to manage how I feel by going outside and spending time in the woods among the birds, etc... Lots of stuff. I'm also in a LOT of pain tonight. It's so hard to manage that when I'm not at home.Am wondering if your resistance is to do with a very normal not wanting to go to work thing?