Need Help

[Whitebird]

Is anyone there to help me? I'm not ok at all. I can't feel anything. I feel like a robot. It's really really scary. I'm just crying, but in silence because my family is here and I don't want to talk about it with them. I can't live like this anymore...

 

[a3a2]

What is going on, Whitebird? Deep breathes. A hot bath. Some tea. A nap. And step by step sort things out.

 

[Echo]

Hi @Whitebird, please let us know how we can help you. There are lots of us here who can offer support; we've all been through really tough times and we help each other. Are you in a safe place?

 

[Whitebird]

I'm at home. It's night. I can't sleep. What's wrong with me? It's about a week I feel really empty. I haven't seen my therapist for 3 weeks. I don't know what can I do to feel something again..:(:cry:

 

[Echo]

Hi, Whitebird, I'm sorry you are struggling. When do you get to see your therapist again? Is there a helpline you can ring or a good friend if you feel really low?

 

[Whitebird]

Hope to see him next week. No, there aren't any help available right now except this forum. May be tomorrow I could call my friend or my therapist. I wish I had never been born........:cry::cry::cry:

 

[Echo]

Hi Whitebird, have you felt this way before? Are you able to cry or are you just feeling numb? Has your therapist given you any help with how to deal with this? I hope you can find something that soothes you just a little. You are a very valuable person, but you are in a lot of pain. Gentle cyber hugs (if you would accept them).

 

[macbeth]

Hang in there whitebird. I understand completely what you are going through. Not being able to feel is one of the biggest challenges facing someone with ptsd. I know how scary it can be. My feelings range from numbness to fear to sadness to anger and not much else. It is completely normal (normal for pstd that is). Just keep talkin to us ok. we can help you through it:hug:

 

[Deleted member 25711]

Hi Whitebird. @macbeth word's so eloquently describe many of our experiences with PTSD. I hope you feel better soon.
You're not alone.

 

[Whitebird]

It has never taken this long ( about a week ). I can cry, but I'm feeling numb. I'm crying just to feel I exist. It's difficult to explain. I have never talked about this with my therapist because it wasn't this bad before. Every second feel like it's the first and last second of my life....really awful.

 

[Walking Alone]

Whitebird, I know exactly how you feel. After four combat deployments, I lost my family due to my lack to feel. I too go through every day numb and not knowing what the day will hold. I do go to a therapist and am on meds but they do not seem to help. I call it the ride. I can't get out of bed some days and I end paying the price for it here at work but there is nothing I can do. I burst out crying for no reason at times and others I get angry. Just know that there are others out there that do understand you and we are not completely alone, even if it does feel that way. Hang in there and try to find the small things that make you smile....

 

[macbeth]

You don't have to explain. Many of us have been there. I existed for about 18months in the emotional state that you are describing. I sat many times at my kitchen table @ 3am crying and it was the only way I knew I was alive too.