Freemartin
MyPTSD Pro
Sooo, I've understood that many of us trauma folks struggle with the notion of "needing" or "deserving" help. Like, we often minimise our struggles and/or feel unentitled to help. You know, all of those "it wasn't that bad", "others have had it worse" etc. And support, care and help tossed our way make us uncomfortable.
I'm really trying to change here. My T wants me to feel the shitty feelz of being left to my own devices. Of not getting help. Of having to survive alone. She wants me to get to that realization of how bad it was. And she wants me to see myself as a person deserving of support and help.
But this all makes me really nauseous. And it feels ... wrong. I'm much more comfortable shaming myself over being such a whiner.
So. Give me a hand here. Let's face this horror together.
How does the theme of needing & deserving help make you feel? Do you feel totally comfortable, warm and fuzzy, waiting for all that cozy and wonderful care to embrace you? Or do you feel angry, fearful, nauseus, panicky, resentful, what have you?
Is it easy for you to justify getting help and support? Or to feel bad if you don't get it?
Any thoughts are more than welcome!
I'm really trying to change here. My T wants me to feel the shitty feelz of being left to my own devices. Of not getting help. Of having to survive alone. She wants me to get to that realization of how bad it was. And she wants me to see myself as a person deserving of support and help.
But this all makes me really nauseous. And it feels ... wrong. I'm much more comfortable shaming myself over being such a whiner.
So. Give me a hand here. Let's face this horror together.
How does the theme of needing & deserving help make you feel? Do you feel totally comfortable, warm and fuzzy, waiting for all that cozy and wonderful care to embrace you? Or do you feel angry, fearful, nauseus, panicky, resentful, what have you?
Is it easy for you to justify getting help and support? Or to feel bad if you don't get it?
Any thoughts are more than welcome!