Negative self talk

[mamachick]

Just a few years ago, I never left the house until the beds were made and dishes put in dishwasher and house picked up. Mornings I usually took off and did an hour walk, returned and showered and got stuff done all day long. I ran kids around like crazy from 3 til 10 at night. Little by little I have let it all go. I hear what you are saying about this and being still. Yet I dont feel like I am healing, I feel like I am dying, like withering away. I dont know how to get past that.

It is kind of funny though. Often when you call a friend, the want to tell you how busy they are and all the things they have to do. I find it almost comical at times. It is exactly that-feeling so important. One friend is very OCD and never really accomplishes anything. She hoarders and there is only a pathway thru her home, and she has not let anyone it for years. It is a distraction from the pain. I can see how I have done this on a different level. Right now I feel pretty hopeless as I cant seem to get past the negative messages. Maybe I need an anti depressant change.

 

[JustBe]

I understand. I was a wreak for months after I had to stop working. I was all at loose ends. So much time with just myself and nothing that HAD to be done.

It really is a process, learning to just be.

I hope you're doing better.

 

[mamachick]

Thank you MO. I was at my therapist last week and describing how the nerve endings feel throughout my body. She said that is part of fibromyalgia. Not sure I agree. I have fibro pain in muscles and joints, this is like an anxiety and waiting for the left shoe to drop. I know its stress related and after days of this, I will get real run down and hardly can get out of bed. Like now-I came down with a headache, sore throat, and fever blisters. Exhaustion comes with this.

I am trying to be calmer because I have been taking more xanax than I am suppose to. The things we can stress about may seem mild to others, but to those with a broken nervous system, they can be major.

 

[Traumagirl]

My nervous system is messed up also. It's hard to explain so that doctors understand. At least my doctor admits that she doesn't understand everything that my body is doing. But, that doesn't make dealing with the symptoms any easier.