Thanks rightkindofme. No, I made it clear that she cannot hook up at my house. Sometimes she goes to their house or a hotel. I also know that she does not tell me the truth which is on me, because I have talked to her about high risk situations in the past, fear of disease, or a pshcyo. She also thinks every man is SO nice. I accept her how she is. But we might go out with friends at 7 pm and Im ready to come home at 11. She will try to manipulate me to stay. We have mutual friend who is my neighbor. Once she came in at 2 am and I was alseep and the door was locked and I didnt hear her. She had to go to the neighbor friends house who had been with her. Over thanksgiving, she told me-just leave the door unlocked. I said-NOPE-I dont do that. So those are some of the boundaries Im dealing with but its not awful or anything. Im just afraid she is going to meet up with the wrong guy. In her city yesterday, a man posted on fb about his wife cheating on him and then killed her and 3 other people as well as himself. I see how dangerous this could be. Her husband might just do the same if he ever caught her. He is big into guns and a bit of a hot head.
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Self harm in adults with ptsd
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rightkindofme
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Yeah, I wouldn't leave the door unlocked for her either. That's rude.
People take risks. I'm sorry that her behavior is bothering you.
People take risks. I'm sorry that her behavior is bothering you.
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Eli Moss
I saw the dates on the messages and wonder if anyone is still monitoring this board. If not at least I can get the words on paper. I am suffering with PTDS, anxiety and major depressive disorder due to military sexual trauma. I thought I had dealt with this years ago but an interaction with one of my college students set the symptoms off again. I had two panic attacks that mirrored strokes. I was in the hospital for days. They ran every neurological tests but found nothing. My psychiatrist has me on so many medications but I feel lost and helpless. I've never self-harmed before but the idea is continuing to grow in my mind. Maybe if I self-harm (cut) before I went to work maybe I would feel better. I am so scared and alone. I'm married so when my husband goes to work I can't seem to do anything but stare into television. I used to be a happy person but I fear she is gone forever. They only time I feel a little better is when my sister comes to visit. When people are around or when I am at work I pretend to be happy so they do not worry about me. I have a drink or two before I call my children or grandchildren so I have a boost to sound happy. Thanks for listening it anyone is out there. If not writing has helped.
BlackbirdSinging
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I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time right now. What I can tell you about self harm is that it's almost always followed by shame and guilt. Instead of helping to ease a problem long term it can end up making you feel bad about it. I have a history with cutting. And every time I've cut and then had to see the marks left behind I was disappointed in myself and I didn't feel better. I'd only added one more thing to work through.
Maybe something you can try are different grounding techniques. When I'm really struggling and things I try don't seem to help ease the symptoms enough I go to youtube and do guided meditations. To slow the anxious thoughts allows your brain to start thinking more rationally. It struggles to distort and be rational.
One thing I want to say is you're not alone. Everyone here speaks the same language even if for different reasons. Maybe you can try chat and see if there are people you can talk to when you need a more immediate response. Things improve they just take time. Be gentle with yourself. You're fighting a hard battle. You're not alone though and there are a lot of people here who would be happy to talk and to listen.
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Lostsoulx08926
I'm 26 female who has been abused when young by my parents adopted disgusting rat son for eight years and never quit self injury I mostly cut and bruise ....I can't tell anyone no one knows they think I'm fine I keep it to myself..I've seen therapists not for my sexual assault just SI...never works so I quit as always I'm ranting off and off I quit so many times ....I'm having tears pool my eyes as dark images run through my fk up mind...I wish someone can just pull me close and demand to know if I'm ok... I will of course lie but someone to fk understand me and not call me a crazy person for self harming
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Lostsoul8926
I'm feeling suicidal the thoughts are intense I self injure a lot been abused for eight years and now 26...I just need someone to understand me!!!! Not call me a freak or crazy ....I'm in a crisis alone with tears I can't talk no one knows I still suffer badly from self injury depression ....I'm so fk up I can't stop crying why am I like this? I need someone to not believe when I say I'm fine ....
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Gretchen Darko
It's such a struggle I have never cut I have enough scars but I hit my head I put it threw the wall twice im still leaning on how to control this they medicated me but it's just there and nobody understands
Hello--i am new to this website. I also use a hammer to self harm. At first I thought it odd, but now it feels like a secret ritual --especially when I am angry about anything PTSD-related (sexual abuse flashbacks, my isolation). I'm trying ti make myself cry I think...i do relate and thank you for sharing your similar situation.
Last night I tried to break my arm. This would seem crazy to most people...does anyone have thoughts re: what's happening here? Thank you.
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