She got engaged, I envy her

[Ocean147]

A promise ring. *sigh* he gave me a promise ring a month in. A MONTH! That's when I should have left, I should have known. Especially when he had ignored me in anger. That was MY choice to say no. I'm glad I did. He promised marriage but way too damn quick. Still we talked about it, we were young and dumb high schoolers. Now, several years later, it's like whenever someone gets engaged....ugh! I feel so much pain emotionally but I hide it behind a smile towards the friend that got engaged. I want to celebrate with her really I do, but I'd rather cry. Is that wrong?

 

[Friday]

I'd rather cry. Is that wrong?

I don’t know about right/wrong, but certainly not uncommon.

 

[OM_™]

Hi Ocean147

A lot of things we do when we are 'young and dumb' can hurt for a very long time. That's why I joined myptsd.

Found a couple of articles that might help. Please ignore if they are not relevant.

What’s Wrong With a Little Bit of Jealousy?

Once insecurity enters a relationship, the bond begins to weaken.

www.psychologytoday.com

How to Deal With Feelings of Jealousy in a Healthy Way

Jealousy is a negative emotion that most often occurs in romantic relationships. Find out the signs, concerns, and how to cope.

www.health.com

 

[Ocean147]

Thank you. I'll take a look at those.