the.lone.wolf
New Here
spent the entire day in bed staring blankly at my ceiling, like I always do....
feeling crippled, locked in a state of fear and anxiety, while floods of suicidal thoughts cycle through my mind...I think I killed myself in my mind 8 times today...
I played the same song on repeat for hours...I feel like I'm punishing myself
I have no desire to "get better"...all I do is hurt people, I'm a horrible friend, a terrible son, a f*cking parasite and a cancer...
I wish my body didn't feel so unfamiliar, I'm so very tired...
feeling crippled, locked in a state of fear and anxiety, while floods of suicidal thoughts cycle through my mind...I think I killed myself in my mind 8 times today...
I played the same song on repeat for hours...I feel like I'm punishing myself
I have no desire to "get better"...all I do is hurt people, I'm a horrible friend, a terrible son, a f*cking parasite and a cancer...
I wish my body didn't feel so unfamiliar, I'm so very tired...