Took A Huge Chance Tonight!!!!

[Nicky31]

Well done Pandora.

It takes energy, self belief and confidence to get back out there amongst people, and even more to be the person organising it. Brilliant stuff. Looking forward to hearing your progress.

:thumbs-up

 

[pandora]

The date is booked for December 18th....there are probably about 20 people or more that have responded and are going.

I am looking into renting a room at the casino for the night with a few girls coming from out of town..I cannot beleive how excited I am. When they had an actual reunion a few years ago. I did not want to go, I did not want to to see anyone. I felt like a failure and a loser and I had nothing good to tell anyone! OMG...What a difference a few years has made.

I am soooo excited. I am actually going out!!! It has been years, literally! A whole night for myself...don't get me wrong, I love my son but I need a little break and I am finally going to get one!

 

[JohnnyM53]

Congrats Pandora!

I know the feeling. I didn't attend my high school graduation because I felt like a loser, had no nice clothes and was too nervous.

I organized a 30 year reunion with guys I started working with in 1974 and it was fun.

I hope you have a blast!

So very happy for you.

Let us all know how it went ok!!!

I hope you win a lot of moulah too!

 

[Deleted member 541]

Pand,

Have a great time with all of your friends........My wish for you is to *hit it big* that night gambling ................

 

[Ursa]

Everyone need a break from time to time.:wink:

Enjoy yours!

 

[NarcSis]

Good For YOU!!!!!!

I've reconnected with some of my friends from highschool and university through facebook, although, the distance between us means we only communicate mostly online, we've managed to schedule occassional meetings now and then. Wow, I'm so proud of you! This is so great.

Water under the bridge, after so many years, who knows what they've all gone through, it will be so interesting to catch up with them.

Highschool is so far in the past and so many things have happened since then - you're all different people now. Have FUN!!!

 

[CCurry]

What an uplifting post Pandora, it really made me smile. Way to go!!

C.

 

[pandora]

Well it is here...it is this week. I had a stressful event that has brought a rise in my symptoms and I hope the crying stops by friday...I know it will! I have to again..be positive. My initial instinct is to cancel but I am not. I deserve this and there are people coming from out of town that I have not seen in years. I have an appt to have my hair done, my Mom is staying with my son and the hotel room is booked. My irrational thoughts about men coming on to me have started....its funny..I bought a new shirt...a black turtle neck!!! Now that says leave me alone, right? LOL I am going to push myself..I have earned this night out and I deserve the right to enjoy it! Damn PTSD.....

 

[TLight]

Way to go Panda.........this is a big risk but I'm sure it will be a joy! Have fun!

 

[Grama-Herc]

Take a BIG DEEP BREATH and go for it. I hope it turns out to be all you want.

Have fun and enjoy and Good Luck

 

[Nicky31]

:smile:Go for it Pandora!!! Your black turtle neck says understated sophistication to me.

You can do this. Whatever your calming techniqes are, pull them out of the bag in Friday and look after yourself all day so that you are relaxed when it's time to set off. You are doing this for you. If you want to leave after a while you can of course. You can also soothe and calm yourself when there. Find a place you feel safe when you first arrive for example. Have you thought also about things you might ask folk to avoid tough silences?

I really wish you well with this hon. I shall be thinking of you
:Hug_emoticon:

 

[pandora]

OK...I am packing and out the door in 2 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot beleive I planned this and I am actually going...what a difference a year...a clear head, allowing peiole into your life and a little bit of hope can give you!!!!!!!

Talk to you all tomorrow and will let you know how it went!!!!!