What Is The Most Scariest Thing You Have To Do Today Or Tomorrow

[Sammyiam]

Hi everyone,

What is the scariest thing you have to face or do in the next couple of days ?

I have to go see my psychiatrist tomorrow and try and sort out some new meds, as it feel these ones aren't working very well. As soon as I walk into the room I lose all ability to talk, and ask questions, I just sit their like an idiot.

I also have to think about going to the dentist, well, making the appointment for a start :(

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Freezing my green beans! Ok, not all that scary, but a new adventure. I am trying to keep my mind off something even bigger that happens in 2 weeks. Trying to stay calm. Trying to NOT use google and freak myself out... Trying to stay strong. I will be ok, I will be ok.... Don't want to really share right now, but I'm sure I will when the day comes. Scary stuff.

 

[Fadeaway]

@Sammyiam I just went through that with seeing a psychiatrist. I was having anxiety over the appointment so I wrote everything in a letter and handed it to the psychiatrist when I got there. It was one of the best things I have done because I he was able to read everything I needed him to know instead of me stumbling over my words and feeling like I didn't communicate what I needed to, to get the help I needed. That usually seems to be the norm.

The scariest thing I have to do? Move to a different state. 2 more days and I am still in avoidance mode. Not packing or doing the things I should.

 

[Leah123]

I'm really sorry you have a tough day ahead: psychiatrist & dentist, ugh. I've had that type of trouble w/the dentist too, just switched a while ago because they were just too incompetent and cold, had gotten really hard to go.

Tomorrow, I'm going to tell my therapist in detail about the horrible events of the breakdown I had when I was 16 after disclosing abuse and losing a lot of my family that led to me dropping out of high school. :( Here's to bravery! It usually pays off!!!

 

[goingonhope]

Tonight going to bed and surrendering an illusion of some control and this day is scariest for me and for additional uncertain reasons.

Tomorrow its scary to consider needing to wake exhausted and uncertain of the unknown.

- I'm in the process of gaining new and greater understanding and acceptance resulting from much surprising recent memory recall, connections/understanding, as well as, due to intrusive memories again. That lead pipe I once, very long ago recalled, when then responding to a doctor's question, was not a lead pipe, nor was it simple and I invented it, (as I once later had feared). It was the red pole in our basement that held the above kitchen and bedroom floor up. And, very oddly after having vivid visual flashbacks of it, ...a couple days later (like yesterday) I came across a photo with precisely it in it. That picture, and today's vivid memory recollections w/ images hurts. It really does, ...all these years later, it's sad, still lonely and that all hurt awful.

 

[Friday]

The same thing we do every night, Pinky... ;)

Consider checking my email to find out if I've missed my very serious court date that I absolutely, positively, cannot miss. Well I can. But if I do, very bad things will happen. Or not. But I won't know until I check my email. Last time I checked it was April. As of then, no date had been set. I am so f*cked.

 

[GWhizz]

Right now I'm in the waiting room waiting to see my colorectal surgeon (who by the way, I also work with on a daily basis at another hospital nearby) to follow up my recent surgery for trauma from childhood abuse. These appointments are just so invasive and nerve wracking and I also see this guy in work it makes it ten times harder. Granted he's a lovely professional consultant and I trust him very well. Though there's still the embarrassment of having him looking down there when I'm not that confident about that part of my body, and then having to liaise with him in work tomorrow about my patients, as though this never happened. He is super professional but I remain terrified - the surgery was actually easier, at least I was asleep for that!

I also had a few recent dental appointments as my caps knocked off my front teeth (again from childhood trauma). It's all so much more upsetting than routine dental issues - I still feel annoyed that I am having to deal with these lasting physical issues when none of it should have ever occurred to begin with.

I really hope you make good progress with your psych and your meds are adapted to better suit you. I just had my sertraline dose doubled last week and I feel the improvements just about this week.

Let us know how it goes. And by the way, thank you so much for your message last week - I really appreciated you reaching out to me even if I didn't have a lot of time to reply to the specific context.

:hug:

 

[GWhizz]

Great thread by the way :)

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Today I go to my therapist's new office. Seems like a minor thing, but I am very scared.

 

[FindingMyself88]

Today I have to run some errands with Bristol. We have not left the house since the kid incident on Thursday.. Basically she had a kid lunge at her and attack, frightening her. After that she was very nervous with any kid we saw. I freaked out thinking I was going to have to wash her out of service dog work, but people here have encouraged me that it was just a bad day. So today will be our first day back out on the job.

Tomorrow I have therapy and we are starting emdr on a new target, one that causes extreme flashbacks and anxiety and is very complex as it links to a lot of my abuse..

 

[d-art13]

For me....exposure therapy :( I know it pays off in the end but it certainly feels so bad as you go through it.
Wishing everyone a great day!!

 

[Spiderallis]

Ugh, the dentist- I'm gathering up courage to pick up the phone and find one of those. Can't put it off any longer, the pain woke me up at 4am.

Tomorrow I'll meet my new T, same office but a different person because my insurance changed. I really liked the T I had. It'll take me some time to adjust. It's less scary when I remind myself that I can try someone else if we're not a good match.