General Why Do I Feel So Angry Right Now

[Deleted member 33287]

My PTSD friend pushed me away and randomly blocked me on Facebook a week ago after being in 0 contact for long time. Doesn't bother me tbh. I was at peace with her being in Jesus hands but all sudden I am really angry about her today and no idea why. Number one thing I want to do is yell at her dad for him being the reason she has awful judgement on who she trust

 

[SeanCharles]

While I am a suffer, I can in many ways empathize with your anger. Yes, it is common for us suffers to push those important away and have zero contact with them or anyone.

Number one thing I want to do is yell at her dad for him being the reason she has awful judgement on who she trusts.

Again, I can understand this urge. PTSD is very ugly and does cause suffers to need space from the rest of the world. Hopefully in time, you're friend will come back to you, or worse case scenario maybe they ended up in the hospital. I would try and find a way to check on them if possible.

Maybe others can chime in here too with some other suggestions.

 

[Sweetpea76]

Why are you wasting so much energy on her and her situation when she obviously isn't thinking about you or giving you any consideration? Why does she get that free pass with you?

How long were you actually friends with her versus how long it has been since she cut off contact? You were never in a romantic relationship with her, and you were only friends for a very short time from your own account.

Honestly, it seems like way more of a "you" situation. Maybe you need to work on figuring out why you are obsessing over a woman who doesn't want a relationship with you.

 

[Deleted member 33287]

Um I had a random flashback that made me angry sorry for journaling on here

 

[EveHarrington]

Can I be real?

It's entirely possible that she thinks about you zero percent of the time. It's entirely possible that she stumbled upon something on FB and decided to just block you because she didn't want to deal with it.

I know this sounds horrible but once I go zero contact I don't look back. I can't even begin to tell you how many people contact me months and months later and it's a complete surprise to me because they tell me they never stopped thinking about me. Me, on the other hand, out of sight, out of mind. I'm too busy keeping my head above water with this thing called basic functioning to be thinking about people I pushed away and don't want in my life anymore. And I think "gee, maybe you should get a hobby instead of pining for me!" But of course I don't say that as it would be rude. Once I push someone away, I don't want them back, even if they think I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread. Maybe I should stop treating people like they're actually something special so I can just be left alone.

 

[PointlessExistence]

There are days I'll remember something and I'm filled with hate. Then the next day I won't even care anymore. Then it'll come back again at a later time. Happens to me all the time. There are dozens of people, who randomly pop into my mind, who fill me with anger. Then the feeling goes away. With some of the people (people who were at least semi-friends and not just random assholes) I hate them one day and the next day I'll be happily reminiscing about their good qualities.

I pretty much go through what you're describing every day of my life.