What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Ronin]

If I can get volume on this any louder.

If aapparently I'm not trustworthy either with shooting, nor with driving. So the other cope that ain't drinking. Tunes.

 

[MrMoonlight]

If I should or shouldn't start sharing my PTSD stuff in a more public way that could be connected to my real name.

 

[Ronin]

If I should or shouldn't start sharing my PTSD stuff in a more public way

Are there more benefits than disadvantages and risks in that for you, MrM?

Asking out of concern, not to be deliberately obtuse.

 

[MrMoonlight]

Thanks bud.

Are there more benefits than disadvantages and risks in that for you, MrM

Advantage could be to connect with more people like us, help others while finding a voice, maybe change my outlook, how I see things as I develop content.

I don't worry about friends because I stopped maintaining them a long time ago and have none left really. Maybe a few people I still know from high school. I don't work but I suppose future jobs could be jeopardized, maybe future relationships.

I worry most about the stuff I can't think of. I'm conflicted.

 

[Tinyflame]

Well my ride that offered last week for tomorrow I guess has tanked, as they have not responded to my text. Which wouldn't matter so much if I didn't have to walk for blocks in the cold in the worst crime-ridden spot in town at 8 a.m. :( And I'm allergic to cold lol.

Put lol on the end and you can say anything.

I seriously don't know why I bother speaking, or breathing. I am dead, or invisible, already, lol.

When I said to someone, I think they will tank, they said don't be so negative.. so I thought positively. Dumb me. :(

 

[DharmaGirl]

No,@Tinyflame, it reflects on them. They are the ones who didn't deserve to be trusted.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @DharmaGirl , for your kindness. :hug: Well, I guess what is the worst, is I need my energy, need to look pulled together, and am getting tested all day, & my job depends on it. And they don't care (in general). Didn't think I could feel worse about myself, but there you go, lol. :cry: :(

 

[VioletButterfly]

I "need" to be sending out resumes and securing an apartment.

 

[Tinyflame]

@VioletButterfly :hug:

All I can say is Thank you Thank you Thank you God. And @DharmaGirl shamefully I say it turned out to be my fault/ my phone :( , but in time to fix it, and they really were great with all they did, and we joked together late in to the night. They were contemplating skipping. I had decided to cab it one way, but didn't need to. Thanks to all who helped & @Lionheart777 for your prayers, & my friend if he might have. And thank God for drive thru coffee, esp with 3 hours of sleep (and snowplows with back up beeps = a very triggered frightened dog).

I was told I was the tiniest strongest person they've ever seen, impossible for my size, so maybe old nickname of Baby Hercules can still apply. :laugh: :rolleyes:

Hoping for 2 people on saturday. ??

 

[DharmaGirl]

My damn neighbors. Or rather, my damned recurring thoughts about my neighbors when I intellectually don't care what they think of me. I'm afraid of them.

 

[Ronin]

f*ck me, I'm an Aerosmith song. :shifty:

I don't want to miss a thing.

If I end up doing Lady Gaga God owes me a refund in ships in exchange for not being shot. Personally.

 

[Tinyflame]

I understand that @DharmaGirl . But how much more miserable must they be to act and think that way? I'll say one for you, because I get it. :hug: