Speechless... Can You Help?

[scout86]

Can you cook? Do you like pizza? Do I have to clean the house? :hug:

 

[desiderata310]

If your up for a trip back to CA, I currently have a spare room and I keep things very chill.

 

[Eleanor]

And remember Shimmerz, you don't HAVE to stay if it doesn't work out for you. You are not signing yourself in for life. Or even for a month. Try it for two weeks (that is your horizon now anyhow, right?) Just for two weeks. Then see.

What are the EP's freaking out about? Specifically. Have they let on yet?

 

[shimmerz]

You guys are absolutely the best. I cook (I notice you didn't qualify it with the word 'well'). Whew. Now that I am no longer triggery I make a great PTSD sufferer helper. I now have a list of qualifications that I didn't have back in the day. CV available upon request. :laugh:

The only problem is if this did become reality, I would need someone to write the email.... Richter???? Ghotiff??? Anyone???
Seriously Desi, I would come to your place in a heartbeat if it would help you.

 

[Eleanor]

Emails composed upon demand. :)

Cut, paste and send.:nailbiting:

 

[scout86]

@shimmerz , in my version of reality, you don't have to email, just show up at the door (and identify yourself). You could call from the border & I'd come and pick you up, (I don't have a passport and I hear they've gotten serious about that.)

And remember Shimmerz, you don't HAVE to stay if it doesn't work out for you

You might like this. My T came up with a truly revolutionary idea the other day. I had mentioned that I still feel a bit guilty about my divorce, because I had
changed the rules in the middle of the game and my ex liked the old rules. My T said, "Who told you you can't change the rules?" I said, "You can change the rules?" He said, "Not only CAN you change the rules, you HAVE to change the rules!" Who knew? (I've been thinking about this ever since, just trying to believe it!)

 

[shimmerz]

@Eleanor , thank you for the reminder that this isn't permanent or even long term. Yes, I think there are a couple of EP's peeking out right now. One is about abandonment. The other is about being in the way. Another yet is not being of value. I can feel the churning, I have been walking pigeon toed all afternoon and my shoulders are slumped and my head down. On the upside, I haven't dropped at all and a few months back I would have been down for days with all of this moving around.

I keep having to correct my posture because that is how they present with me physically. I am working on straightening up while I keep trying to imagine how it would feel just to have a roof and a place to flop without worrying about the cold every day. It is a tough one but I keep trying to feel how that would feel with all of my senses.

I keep wondering if the gypsy lifestyle is one that I should embrace. It seems like permanence is not in the cards for quite some time.... maybe I should just go with that for now.

Thank you Eleanor for offering your admin skills. Sounds like it may be a full time job for you with the way I am hopping around these days. Do you know how to keep a calendar as well???? Let's see, I will be at Desi's mid March til mid May, then Scouts from mid May til Mid July.....:)

and identify yourself

You will know me when I arrive Scout. I am the chick with the bad CA hairdo, done by a hick town Ontario hairdresser. Can't miss me these days.....

 

[shimmerz]

Not only CAN you change the rules, you HAVE to change the rules!

Jeez, I wish I had your T. I spent years paying for changing the rules! I didn't know that either!

 

[Eleanor]

gypsy lifestyle is one that I should embrace

Semi-nomadic is better. Best of both worlds. And this spot sounds like it would fit right in. Stay for a few weeks, get the itch, take off for a week or three. Come back, check in, stay, or not. Gypsies are semi nomadic.

know how to keep a calendar as well????

BWAHAHAHA!!! No, but my phone does. :D

 

[illusionist]

August, September is lovely here in England...if you can manage the swim.

 

[Eleanor]

Talk those EP's down Shimmerz.... Stay calm, Talk 'em down. Breathe! Ask them what they want in a place...??

 

[shimmerz]

They are afraid of houses. I have a real dilemma here. I am not nearly as reactive to it these days, before this would have triggered my passive toddler, 'okay I am going outside to die now' EP, but today it was way calmer. I am thrilled about that. It seems she is settled. However, this house thing is a very large issue. They want to be safe in a house, I am certain, but I am not certain that they trust in that. I think they each have a piece that wants to know that they can come and go if they need to. That she isn't captive. My stomach is actually churning while I write this. That is pretty unusual for me. I usually don't feel that stuff.