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Hi, Since last week I have admitted myself back in a mental hospital. My complex trauma is getting the best of me... Any advice how to get through this? Thanks..

Hello, The title speaks for itself. The Big Clean Up is better I guess. Being a plus dad of 2 boys of 6 and 9 has been good and revealed a lot. Soon I am gonna be a father and dad of my own kid and this also has been good and revealing. The books I am reading about fatherhood and motherhood...

Hi, Called in sick today, because I am just depleted from nightmares, flashbacks and panic attacks. This is the reason why I am doing the volunteering first before going back to paid work. All part of the process for me. Next thursday I am going back to the volunteering job. Feels like...

Hi, Today I am having a bad day. Any helpful tips to get through this day? Thanks

Hi, Today did my 3rd day of volunteerwork. So far so good. My brain and body need to get used to people again. The work itself is easy. Any tips and tricks from my people? :) Thank you.

Hi, Feeling like an unwanted child .. does this sound familiar with anyone? And how do you cope and work through this? This gaping ice cold hollow abyss is what I have been trying to fill or close all of my life with about every selfdestructive copingmechanism there is. Looking forward to...

Hi, Today had a session with the EMDR machine. This was a first. More intense than the slapping my hands on my legs. I could sense how my left and right half of my brain were triggered. Feeling depleted and empty. Anyone done this type of EMDR before? Feedback? Thanks

Hi, Seems that I am avoiding talking about SA in my T Sessions. Any tips how to get working on this? Thanks

Hi, I started bingeeating again when I started to realize that I had complex trauma. Topweight was 136kg. Now already lost 7 kg and I am at 129kg. Why I binge? To fill the emptyness that I feel. To calm me down when I am full of rage, angst, sorrow, grief. Any tips on how to deal with this...

Hi, Friday had an EMDR session on anger, rage. Today after last nights flashbacks/nightmares about my mother trying to crash the car with me in it and me trying to keep us on the road, I feel drained. Next week I start volunteerwork one day a week in a kitchen for the homeless and less...

Hi, Yesterday I did an online EMDR session on anger. First question from my psychologist was: 'Where does your anger come from?' My anger is almost always there. About the emotional abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, abandonment, physical abuse, relentless bullying on a daily basis for more than a...

Hi, Since last week I have studying my stabilazation course of CBT from my trauma therapy sessions and it seems, feels that I am only now processing, remembering and executing the material and excercices that I am reading and studying. Finally my mindfog is clearing up. 2.5 years of...

Hi, Next monday I am going to check out a place to start volunteerwork. Any tips and tricks from anybody? Looking forward to of. Peace

Hi, Tomorrow we have an EMDR session planned about my mother and her masturbating next to me from 10 to 14 years old while obligating me to sleep in her bedroom in the twinbed, when I was already acustomed to sleeping alone from early age when my abusive, violent, narcissistic, alcoholic...

Hi, On a good dat I feel like I can do any job. On a bad day especially after a horrible night of reliving stuff from my past, I feel like f*ckit I'll just be on dissability untill I die. I am 40 years old and today I am in a what does it matter if I go work or not. As long as I have a roof...

Hi, I still can 't put into words what is going with me right now... Alexithimia according to the Body keeps score. The glooming hollow veil that hangs over this time of year makes me feel dismally alone. Even amongst people. I cried today when I listened to Eminem's cleaning out my closet...

Hi, Is it normal when getting out of hyperarousal that I am having lowerbackpain and radiating pain in my legs, feet, hands, shoulders etcetera? Everytime when mentally I am getting better this happens... Open to feedback. Thanks.

Hi, Reading the Body keeps score made me aware that my brain is damaged from chronic childhood trauma. What can I do to heal my brain? Thanks

Hi, Is het normal to keep having nightmares while being in Traumatherapy for almost 2 years now?

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Hi, 3rd day of forestwalking with the doggo. 15k today. Walking is wonderful. Came across a Netflix movie called Stutz. Applying these techniques is working wonderfully well. Just do It is my mantra at the moment

Hi, Went for a 10k steps walk with the doggo in the forest through the rain. Big up to me! Anyone else taking care of their body?

Hi, A few days ago I posted my CV online and since then I have had about 20 to 25 calls, texts and e-mails regarding job oppurtunities. Good news, yet still not replied to and of them.

Hi, During the last 4 days I had 2 sessions and yesterday I was exhausted so I slept for 13 hours. Is this normal? Does this mean I need to give myself more time before starting to werk again? Looking forward to feedback.. Thanks.

Hello, I recently surfed to the website of ACA and I am confronted by to how much of the questions I answered yes to. All of them. This is the first time that I am fully aware of how much damage the addictions of both mother, father and other members of my family have done to the child and...