TruthSeeker
MyPTSD Pro
It's been quite a few years since I have posted publicly on this site.I have been coming here at times but just to post in my private diary.Things have been rough lately and I am highly symptomatic,so I decided it's time to become active again.
I left my husband recently.I won't go into all the reasons why except to say he also has PTSD but refuses to seek treatment.Since leaving I have been caught between the past,my childhood,and the present.I try to focus on the here and now but my mind keeps wandering back.
Even though I am the one who left him,at times I feel like an abandoned,abused child,and so hopeless and helpless.
I left my husband 2 years ago. I kept wishing it could be different, that he'd try, or that he loved me.......wasn't going to change the truth.....and abandonment.....yep, he left the marriage but so did I, abandonment issues from long ago-they resonated, lost my father and the rest of my family the same time.......but today, I'm feeling much better than 2 years ago. I guess I'm saying, it will improve.