Altering my core belief of being totally bad & unworthy no matter; corrosive self doubt

[ms spock]

I am able to get on top of the distorted cognitions quicker and quicker.

 

[ms spock]

I am still back here but kind of moving against it or exploring it. Much progress has been made since I started this thread.

 

[AnD]

Hi, I read your starting post and I feel the same. I have just come out of a shit storm. Realized that my self hatred is the main reason that I am not functioning.

Was looking for a thread where I can get support around loving myself.

Wishing you a better day today

 

[bird_on_a_wire]

And to you too @AnD . :hug: And thanks for the alert, I never could remember if the authors were the same or not, because I did not find 1st useful, and Ms Spock had answered my question.

 

[ms spock]

Corrosive self doubt from early childhood. It is what it is. Feels real but is not true.

1. Radical Acceptance.

2. Self Compassion Breaks

1. This is suffering.
2. Anyway who has trauma struggles with X thinking, maladaptive day dreaming, eating, etc
3. What can I do now to comfort myself.

3. Tara Brach has
RAIN

1. Recognise
2. Acknowledge
3. Investigate
4. Nurture

Repeat x a million.

 

[AngelkeeperJ]

@ms spock
I've learned so much from you...

 

[ms spock]

Really struggling with this but it is light years better than what it was, I have to just be honest about things and challenge my thinking. It's not easy but worth while.

 

[osiris]

@ms spock thank you for posting this (I realise it was last year originally so a while ago).

In a dark spot (again :banghead: ) and reading your first post, it really spoke waves about where I am at.

 

[outfromunder]

I drown in self-hatred. One thing I found that I was good at caring for small and furry animals-mice, rats, Guinea Pigs, gerbils, and hamsters. No one has been able to take that away from me.

 

[ms spock]

So I do things for a bit then I get caught up in ruminations which unfortunately I take seriously.

Sometimes I do use my rational mind. That needs practice.

 

[ms spock]

So last session my psychiatrist said it's OCD thinking.

So what I thought was my corrosive self doubt is OCD thinking.

I have been listening to a lot of David Burns podcast.

 

[ms spock]

I can trust myself. I am nowhere as bad as I thought I was.