Poll Do You Have the Urge to Run When Upset?

[Deleted member 1860]

I ALWAYS run. I'm fighting the urge to not run now.

 

[suzie q]

Recently I had a melt down with my husband due to extreme stress from sick family members and packed my bags. I drove about 25 miles down the road and pulled over at a truck stop because I could not cry and drive at the same time. I don't know where I was going and felt severe anger and fear at the same time. I spent the night in my truck with a knife open in my hands. The next morning I started crying again and when I got myself together, I went into the restaurant and had breakfast. I felt like I had been dreaming and that I did not really remember how I got there. Everything seemed shadowed in a mist. I still had serious fear and after a few cups of coffee, I drove home. That's when I started to look on the internet under depression (since I don't have a therapist now) and found this forum. Thank God!! I have run my whole life since I was a teenager. When things got really bad, I left everything behind that was material and moved on. I have run less over the years. I've been married 23 years, so that makes things different somehow.

 

[onebravegirl]

I used to have nightmares of running away from a Grizzly. Then one night I decided in the dream to stop. I turned around and asked the bear why he was chasing me. He didn't answer, he just ran away.
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[Grainne]

For years and years I would 'run away' in my car when things got too much to handle. My anxiety was still unexplained at this point in my life and I just didn't know what else to do. All I knew was that I needed to get away from the situation.

After diagnosis, I don't feel the need to run away as much because, I think, being able to identify what was happening, gave me back some the power to choose.

My two cents, anyway.

Grainne

 

[CafeAulait]

Yes! Under tense conditions I want to run away. I do not want to be part of tense situations and I just want to run away. I hate the way a tense situation makes me feel.

 

[RosieNorth]

For about a year I've often felt a strong urge to run, but when I do I feel like something is chasing me and I become even more nervous!

 

[naturalfirebrand]

I do not run, I clean.

Linda

 

[lyrical]

Yup i've run twice, once I was strong enough to walk out of home with just my dog and a bag of clothes away from one of my abusers. I did get stabbed in the process of getting out of the front door but still kept going. Quite proud of myself for that!

The second the PTSD just totally overwhelmed me so I left my house, car and job and moved about three hundred miles away. Stopped with friends for six months.

I'm currently living with my Mums family but literally run out of the door to avoid arguments or confrontation. I go running quite alot it helps get rid of the emotions for me.

I've decided after the holidays i'm going to move into my own place so I have somewhere to run to!

 

[disconnect]

Running away, literally, metorphorically and emotionally is a special trick of mine.

 

[Cynthiatoo]

No, I have the urge to hide. When I thought I would never get better, I decided I would just hide until I died. That has passed now. So grateful for what has passed.

 

[NIKI]

Yes, I run. Jump in the car and drive to nowhere with the radio blasting. After about an hour I feel much better and come home.

 

[Elphaba]

Kind of. I want to run or to hide, I want to get away. Problem is there is nowhere to go?! I don't drive, so I am by foot when I do go.

This summer i actually slept in the wildlife outside the city where I live a few times. In the winter it is harder as there is nowhere I feel I can go for an extended period of time when it is -10C outside.