Poll Do You Have the Urge to Run When Upset?

[TLight]

Second that.........I run to other jobs a lot. Of course, I was being abused, so that made sense.
At home, when I'm upset with a 'mate' I get in the car and drive somewhere green. I always feel calmer in the green.

Of course, my ultimate run scenario is an attempt. That's always what I have on my mind. Just blend my molecules into the green...........my place of heaven

 

[Cindy]

It's funny, when I hear about adult missing persons - say 25 -60, I always wonder if they did what has always run through my mind. Just leave work some day and keep driving until I reach the Pacific Ocean and a warm sunny place of refuge. Get a job and watch the sunset everyday from the beach. It's great to think about but what would I lose?

 

[KT229]

Running (driving)... right after I left my X and was on my own with 4 kids. If I felt the least bit afraid. I'd pack them in the car with blankets and pillows and drive for hours. Sometimes sitting in parking lots in the middle of the night. I can't count the times I've put myself in dangerous places. When I would have bad dreams about what happened. I would wake up terrified. Sometimes I wouldn't even get dressed. Just hop in the car in my jammies and drive as far and as fast as I could to anywhere. Well now running has me on the "get one more ticket" and you're not driving anywhere list. I've slowed down. But still occassionally run. I don't know about ya'll but when I'm like that. I'm just functional enough to drive, I'm there but not. I just feel that when I'm going fast and in the middle of nowhere I feel safe. No one and nothing can hurt me. I've made a conscience effort to stop. Like tonight. I want to disappear. The biggest thing that keeps me from running... my kids, my boyfriend. They keep me grounded. When their not around; or if I'm really having a "moment". Well it's to the bat mobile robin.

 

[Lucky Laser]

I HATE arguing and tension and all that stuff so as soon as something like that starts I start heading towards the door. This is tough because while I know I am just going off to calm down, my husband sometimes sees it as an act of war. =p To me it is a "time out" and to him, nothing better than the silent treatment. So I fight the urge and try not to go... and if I do he tries harder to just let me go. Its a work in progress.

 

[nightowl52]

I felt like running the first 3 or 4 years & I still believe I would have been better off leaving this state & going to the desert at times.

 

[sundance]

Heh, I 'always' ran and thought it was normal. Wow. And, like someone else said, I often found driving around or even just being in the car was calming for me. I thought I was just hyper-sensitive.

I could look around and see that not everyone ran when they felt abused. But then I would 'remind' myself of my 'sensitivity'. Hehe, there is more looping around that goes out from here but I know now that these are just rationalization and that I don't have to leave at all. Of course when the anxiety/pain is great enough sometimes the only thing I can do is just sit still. It's probably better than running off, though.

 

[nor]

Always.

I am finding out (with therapy), that is how I have handled all relationships once I feel threatened. As soon as something is said that triggers my fear of abandonment, I'm the first one to go. That basically applies to every friend relationship I have ever had.

Gotta run away from the situation before someone else does it to me first. That's how I "control" the situation.

Actually trying to do it right now, with running away from the therapy sessions. I guess he has treaded on shaky ground, and I need to get the hell out of there for awhile. I probably shouldn't have, but I'm not ready to completely face what we discussed. I'll go back (I always do, as this isn't the first time I have "run away" from therapy), and I'll have to take it just a little bit slower.

Unfortunately, even though I run away from the source, I can't run away from my mind.....

nor

 

[Shoshin]

I want to run RIGHT NOW. But I have a friend who is in bad shape, and looking out for him is keeping me anchored for now. Funny how I care for myself best when I am caring for someone else first.

 

[LostInTheFog]

I know what you mean - I did the same thing this week, I had an appt with a new therapist and have been waiting a long time and actually chickened out and cancelled. [because of $ reasons too, my rationale] A kind of 'surprise' therapy session brought my symptoms waay out about 2 yrs ago, and yes, that put me on shaky ground to say the least~!! That pesky non-trust... it's hard, but we just have to keep at it : ]

 

[nor]

[because of $ reasons too, my rationale] it's hard, but we just have to keep at it : ]

Boy, do I hear you there Lost! I am in the midst of running away from my T-I canceled this week's appt too.

I use the money aspect whenever I can-to "justify" my not going to therapy and "saving" a few dollars.

Anything to rationalize my running away tendency.

But I am calming down, and realize that the only person I am hurting is myself and that I am just running away from the truth. I have to "trust (?)" the T with helping me to make sense of all the confusion.

I think they call it a "flight or fight" reaction (??) I was never a fighter, but am slowly getting there...

Good luck to you too!

 

[LostInTheFog]

Hmmmm

that reminds me, I gueessss I better call and reschedule..
this weekend was not so great, stayed in my BR all day yesterday!
another reminder...
soon I'll to running TO the therapist!!!

 

[bextehude]

Hey I'm new here but I'm just going to jump right in and answer this question :]

Yeah, I always have the urge to run off. When my family is mad at me because of an anger outburst or something, I just want to run for miles and miles. Sometimes my anger could power that. Once I ran and I was so angry that I felt like I could run forever.