Fed Up With The Rollercoaster Of Emotion

[KP the nut]

I decided against aqua this morning. Feel a bit guilty but felt I needed more time at home. Today is better. (((HUGS))) to everyone who sent support yesterday and those with whom I talked on line.

The kitchen is now tidy again. Still a few more chores but I feel I can do them today. My neck, shoulder and back hurt which is probably all the tension from yesterday. Later some chill out time with my cherry stone heat pillow sprayed with aroma therapy oil, a glass of wine and my audio book.

My youngest daughter phoned yesterday and I was honest about how I felt, it was hard as I didn't want to upset her but didn't want to lie either. She was supportive and a while later my other daughter phoned, my youngest had phoned her and told her to phone me - Bless them.

Linking arms

 

[KP the nut]

Yesterday was goodish, I pottered around the house, tidying etc. Took dogs for their yearly vaccinations, £103 later - HOW MUCH!!

We can go to Scotland so I booked a hotel, it has a pool, steam room and sauna. V apprehensive about travelling but looking forward to it. God, I hope I don't sleep walk, nightmare and shout out

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Today, I was due to volunteer drive a couple of old dears to appointments but they phoned to say they were ill. Did the usual Sat village stuff, H is at work today. I eventually plucked up the courage to start writing in the private bit - paranoid, but that is me. Now I feel sick, anxious and have a pounding headache. I should have just left it under the carpet.

 

[Marie E.]

Stopping by to give you encouragement and support. Especially Love! (((Big Hugs))) Linking Arms!!

 

[KP the nut]

There is a howling gale today, v strong gusts. H had left his pen drive at home, his stupid work computer wouldn't release the emails I sent. So I volunteered to drive the memory stick thing to H. The drive was awful, branches down, car kept being blown to the side, I had to fight to keep it straight, river v high, fast flowing and turbulent.

I was triggered by an ambulance speeding by with light ablaze and siren squealing. Music helped.

I hate being this way, hate having to force myself to do/cope with stuff. I can't give in.

 

[cherryblossom]

I hate the wind! We have had really strong winds for about 3 or 4 days now. And I hate it. It makes me feel anxious, scared, and constantly on edge, but I don't really know why.
Anyway, the weather does affect our moods, so don't be too hard on yourself.
Focus on the positives. Be proud of yourself for going out and driving in the awful weather, instead of beating yourself up because it was hard to do/cope with. You did it!! Well done

 

[KP the nut]

I am heading off to relax before tomorrow.

Must admit to starting to stress and can feel anxiety building and tension in my shoulders and neck. Must remember to breathe. I'm OK, I'm safe. T before dentist so will hopefully be grounded. Must remember Dentist is a sweetie, will ensure I feel no pain -oh can't go there now. BREATHE woman.

 

[Nighthawk]

Thinking of you.

Big (((((hugs)))))

NH

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((Kath))))))))

 

[deer_in_headlights]

((((((((((((((Kath)))))))))))))
You're loved by so many, Sweetheart!
You're being remembered and thought of, and prayed for...
We're with you... We're linked to you with love (and arms :) ).

I'm glad you have T before, and your Dentist IS a sweetie.
I love you, Kath!!!
It'll be O.K.!
(((((((((((((((Kath)))))))))))))
All my love,
Deer

 

[KP the nut]

T refused to do EMDR today. He said I had enough to contend with going to the dentist. We talked, I brought out some stuff, eg self loathing and how I need to be kind to myself - yeah, like, easy for him to say.

He's also concerned about the drive to Edinburgh, too flooding for the emotion. BUT I'M GOING. So he has agreed to spend a session reinforcing coping techniques.

Next Wed is the anniversary of my accident, a good time to do some good work.

Crawling off to bed to lie down now. Urgh, feel sore all over, numbness wearing off.

Linking arms

 

[intothelight]

(((KP))),

That is a lot to have on your plate. I love your determination about going to Edinburgh.

Keep taking care of you.

Deb

 

[Froggie]

((((KP)))) you do have alot to deal with now, but sometimes you know there are things you have to deal with or ready to deal with. Is that trip going to coincide with the anniversary of your accident ? Let us know so that we can be several to send you thoughts of peace, strength and happiness for that well deserved holiday with H