You could drink Ensure for kids. It would be basically the same thing with maybe smaller values of minerals.
I'm a recovered anorexic. I relate to losing hunger cues but also feeling disgusted by food, eating, my body, having anything in my stomach, etc...all of it. I also struggle to eat if very upset or very sad. If I'm amped up...like really hyper (usually out-of-body workaholism mode or anger), I also am not hungry and eat like a bird. Now I maintain a healthy weight because I've restored most normal hunger cues, keep feelings a little better in balance, and really sheer habit.
It could be emotional, related to any of these things, or something else. But your body will demand food. You will set yourself up for a binge unless you've been starving for months or years and nothing is working anymore. But by that point you won't be writing coherent sentences here. If you can, get ensure or make a smoothie or anything...a little protein, a little fat, a little carbs...stuff that will sustain you so you don't get set up for greater emotional problems or binging. My panic attacks were always worse when I was exhausted or under-nourished.
Whatever it takes to eat a bit. I have to do weird things like sit on the floor or distract myself by watching a comedy while eating. I relate to wanting to deter men (for me it was about being gross skinny, not woman-like at all) but mostly my eating disorder was about self-hatred, self denial, shame, control, and also a way to regulate and subdue feelings I could not handle.
Even if it's not really a thing where you are at, I hope you can research possibilities for support for trauma or eating disorder (though trauma at the root of it)
